So maybe i do wish for you...

2007-04-11T19:21:00.000+08:00

this date, last year... had a special moment...

it was a great one! =) only that i wished it would have lasted longer...=S

'And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now cause you don't have another day'

what would you do if you're missing someone?
what would you do if your mind says a different thing from your heart? which would you follow?

maybe it's just me... =}

2007-01-29T02:14:00.000+08:00

ytd was really cool... shouted my arse off and had fun!!! =) seriously, it was one of the proudest moments for me as a singaporean, seeing all the people that filled up the entire stadium, despite the drizzle... and it was surely fun shouting cheering cursing and everything! haha

and ive not studied for the weekend... jus finished watching my girl! all 16 episodes of it! a nice drama! ahahah go watch if any of u all are bored! ahahah BAXIA!!! =)

dear lie,
you're not what i had really wanted. but do what you have to, jus make things right... '=/

2007-01-24T00:26:00.000+08:00

i went to the toilet 3 times to pee in 15 mins jus now! like wtf... i came back to sit for awhile and the call of nature came so i went back into the toilet then out and into agn... bravo! ahahah

And i passed my BTT!! weee and i was the first person to come out, and theres this gal who's like got the 'attitude' sitting beside me, and i tot i saw her looking shocked when i stood up from my place with a 'PASSED' on my screen! ahahah nah nvm.. so gonna hav my 3rd practical tmr... driving is kinda cool rite now for me, but its a lil tiring to go there everytime, lucky thing its jus a 10min bus ride from my place... hahaha u noe how i passed? i asked my imaginary friend to whisper me the answers! muahahahah

so wed,thurs and fri nite will be spent in sch studying! at the same time being paid... how cool! ahaha but then it was pretty much tiring tat fri cus its freaking 12 long hours! i swear i can die there, i went to sleep woke up, went to sleep woke up, went to slp agn and woke up agn, a few times, and it really really feel like the needles of the clock was crawling like a snail!!!!!! omg! but still, im paid, so cant complain! ahahah

been hooked by this korean drama, 'My Girl'... yes i noe im a lil slowpoke, but at least i have sumthing to kill time off when im bored now... their songs are ncie too... and the drama, personally i tink its nice, cus yea, i like this kinda cheesy storyline... its not wrong for a guy to enjoy this kinda shows rite? ahhaha who cares!!! yea its sweet nice and all but well, its a lil tat... ahahah nah nvm

and yah, im always making my own mess..dengs! im confused!! garhs garhs garhs.. weeets weets weets, nvm things take time so yea... weets weets

anw this song is nice for me now i tink...the lyrics are cool.. SOHC Pres Jeff sent! ahaha =D

Secondhand Serenade - Half Alive
It's four AM, I'm waking up to your perfume
Don't get up, I'll get through on my own
I don't know if I'm home
Or if I lost the way into your room
I'm spiraling into my doom
I'm feeling half alive but I know one day
You and I will be free,

To live and die by our own rules,
Free..
Despite the fact that men are fools.

I'm almost alive, and I need you to try
And save me.
It's okay that we're dying,
But I need to survive tonight, tonight.

Well excuse me while I get killed softly,
Heart slows down and I can hardly tell you I'm okay
At least 'til yesterday,
You know you got me off my highest guard,
Believe me when I say it's hard.
We'll get through this tonight
And I know one day you and I will be free

To live and die by our own rules,
Free..
Despite the fact that men are fools.

I'm almost alive, and I need you to try
And save me.
It's okay that we're dying,
But I need to survive tonight, tonight.

And you touch my hand ever so slightly
(Girl we're not ready for this yet)
And the deadly look she cast upon me
I won't regret, I won't regret
I won't regret. I won't regret...

And I was trying to disappear,
But you got me wrapped around you
I can hardly breathe without you
I was trying to disappear
But I got lost in your eyes now,
You brought me down to size now.

I'm almost alive
And I need you to try and save me.
It's okay that we're dying
But I need to survive tonight, tonight
Tonight...

I'm almost alive, and I need you to try
And save me.
It's okay that we're dying,
But I need to survive tonight, tonight.
I need to survive tonight, tonight

Amazing that sumtimes, u can jus relate your stuffs to songs and shows... =)

2007-01-21T23:15:00.000+08:00

i wanna hav an imaginary friend! muahahaha... i was watching tv jus now when my brother was telling my mum abt his friend's little son talking all by himself, and usually in this kind of cases, it will usually be associated wit parnormal stuffs... so yea... ahahah anw, i jus wanna hav imaginary friend, but not the paranormal stuffs, jus an imaginary friend i can talk to! dengs i jus need to talk! ahahah this blog aint tat good. get wat im tryna say? no? nvm its ok, my imaginary friend will! muahahaha

now comes the hard part... a name for it? ahahahha weird

and then my mum showered my cats, and the older one, omg!!! i saw his balls all black! ahahha he's damn old ord! i kept him since 8 years ago, and during tat time, he was already considered and adult cat... and cats live only for so long!!! and i tink i'll die if he even died!!! cus he's like the one that will response when u call out his name, he will come to my bedside every nite to get scratched!! at the neck, not the balls...ahahah but cats like it sumtimes so yea, i do scratch above the balls not the balls! ahahah ok ive got 2 cats, the other one much younger but he kinda sux cus hes scared of every single thing! and he never responds to ur calls unless uve got food! but he wasnt like tat when he first came to my place, but i tink its becus of one incident whereby he almost fell out of the window, while showing off to another cat belonging to sumwhere who lives in the opposite block. i tink that caused him a trauma and tats y he's a scaredy cat now... i dunno... dengs.. but my cats rox! no matter!

2007-01-20T23:48:00.000+08:00

aites, so saufi's bday today... happy bday saufi!! ahahah 20 years old ord...super old lah! ahahah and well, aft today, seriously tis few more things were proven rite!!! ahahah no comments! weets weets
anw, tell u wat year 1s of the beautiful SP students' union! not taking cheap shots at u fkers, but jus an advice, be humble...seriously, wat u achieve is something but its not everything, and trust me man, u all still have lots to learn, jus like me, so yea, watch wat u do and say... and we'll live happily ever after! =)

moving on... jeff n me were talking abt our mums nagging to us, especially as the papers are drawing nearer!! ahah and tats is super funny i tinK! and even my GORR GORR keat moo complaining abt her mum being extra naggy too!! ahahah wats wrong wit the mothers of the world now!! ahahaha

anw this world, is running in a system whereby everything is interconnected and interdependent... and tat sux... seriously, i'll be lying if i said tat all the stuffs tat happen ard me will never affect me. the best i can do is jus to minimise the effects upon me, and thankfully sum are not for long nor are they noticeable...
ahaha

the thing is, for me, im quite sure of wat i really want...but then sumtimes im jus so scared of wat others might think, more importantly how others will be affected, especially those directly involved...im scared if tats not wat they want, im scared if they think its not right, i jus care too much abt wat they think and scared of wat the outcome mite be, and well tat contributes to the uncertainties to carry out wat i want... and tis sux cus it really drives me crazy... and to make matters worse, im such a paranoid, that i mite mistook the other person's action as a negative response and then i'll be put off...dengs... i jus wanna live on to be sum1 who dont make others unhappy. sumtimes i jus wish i noe wat they are thinking, so i can make decisions easier... so i wun make them unhappy and at the same time save me all the troubles! ahahaha actually, i dun really care much abt wat the so many others tat dun matter to me feel, but the few special ones... and whenever it involes the few special ones, sum of the decisions i gotta make are jus so hard... and i will be so lost that i go crazy!!!! dengs... and yea, im not good at expressing myself... so tats y even tho it may seems tat i mite not want it, actually i do want it.... weird... dengs... nvm

hmmmmss... wateva it is, nothing horrible will happen to me... weeee =)

2007-01-19T00:20:00.000+08:00

ok... im having a slight stomach upset rite now, cus ive not eaten dinner.. but i drank up lots of gassy soft drinks... and i cant eat now even though im hungry cus im bloated wit the soft drinks... wth... i seriously shud learn to eat wat and wat not.

so 2 more weeks to the examinations, in which i will have 5 papers over a period of 2 weeks! dengs... and tmr i ma start to study overnight at sch, but at the same time, im gg to get paid!!! tats wonderful! ahahah oh yah, having a 2d1n camp in between the papers too! wahawhwah wtf! i need to relax too u noe! ahahah

okok, i tink the year 2 excos rocks now! altho this mite contradict sum of my other comments, but well, of cus there's moments that we share which is simply cool! and yah i do think we rox! ahahah so discard all the bad remarks i mite hav said! ahahah and yea yea yea, i cant wait for FO camp!!! it wud be fun, and hopefully my itp company wud be nice enuf to let me off for this camp! ahahah i surely dun wanna miss it! ahahaahh and yea, theres a mix of feelings for me that the 47th union is gonna end real soon so yea, wateva happens in the future wud seriously be good for me... dengs who doesnt... hahaha i jus hope not much shit will fall upon me no matter wat the future holds for me! pls god, this is one of my prayers! =) dengs

anw... i dunno y but i believe in happy endings, like those in the movies... i like fairytales, and yes i dream alot... =) plus daydreaming... dengs. and yea i do wish for happy endings to happen to me... =) it will happen i believe.. it will! ahaha
be my fairytale then... =)

2007-01-16T23:19:00.000+08:00

im tired rite now!!! ahahah ive got to rush a freaking assignment ytd nite... and its a stupid module, pme...mechanics shiet! and i sux at it! woohoo! but then i did complete it! so bravo to me!!!

anw i missed today's the arena... who noes wats the topic? and who won it? i wanna noe! ahahah i tink the show's quite cool, ive been fascinated by debates since young, and i guess tat explains why i talk too much! ahahaha

and speaking of talking... had a pretty nice talking session with the excos! and yea we had fun! muahahahah i guess tats one of the few fun memories i'll bring alg wit me from this council! ahahah and tats not all!!! theres so many funny stuffs gg on rite now, and yah most of em inside jokes, so i tink it will only be the few of us laughing! wahawhawhawh now tats weird! but who cares, laughing rox! ahahahah

oh yeah, i was coming home today and i saw this gal wit this angmoh! ahahah okok, i sound jealous but seriously i feel sad when i see asians wit angmohs! not racist! never will i be racist...but its like clash of culture, and erms, i m quite conservative, and i dun believe i'll trade my culture and beliefs with the westerners, cuz basically... in my eyes, most of theirs are really undesirable? ahahah tats my opinion! so maybe the arena shud debate abt this! ahahah ironic cus i keep talking abt california lifestyle being fun and all! ahahah

and besides tat, gonna have sum lil income coming this month! so yea... i'll hav a lil extra money... and council's ending!... sch's ending! exam starting! attachment starting! FO preps starting! years 1s gonna die! muahahah ok nah jus kidding!

dengs

2007-01-14T20:41:00.000+08:00

kkk... i really wanna blog abt this. and i gotta blog this.

yea... so i really wanna thank tis 1 person, cus aft giving me tis advice, tat advice made me feel much better, much lighter now!!! altho i reacted a lil harshly when u told me, i never tot it wud like wake me up a lil now.. and yah, rite now, seriously im not sure how to thank u, cus i dun even noe how to start a conversation wit u, so yea, i guess i can only thank u here now... =) i dun tink u'll even noe tat im refering to u, but yea..i wanna sincerely thank u... i'll thank u personally if a chance comes by, cus yea... im not really a person wit balls dengs... =)

Thank You. =)

2007-01-14T01:29:00.000+08:00

Met JEFF SOHC!!! at national stadium jus now for the sg viet match! i was with farhan jr, eric and justin and farhan's lil bro, which is not tat lil aft all! wahawhawh so sg sux and they drew the match... so much for the nike jerseys.... ahahaha supposedly my bro asked me to go there wit him but then i was lazy so he decided to go meet his friend instead but then i called him to say im gg... ahahah wtf...

I M GONNA START TO STUDY FROM NEXT WEEK ONWARDS! I MUST STUDY!!! NO MORE PLAYING!!! STUDY STUDY STUDY! I WILL STUDY!!!

i do say i like to talk... but when i dun feel like talking, seriously dun talk to me... yes im not nice, yes im not friendly, tat jus adds on to the fact that u shudnt talk to me rite rite? ahahahah ok im weird, but seriously sumtimes the things pple talk abt are kinda ridiculous and i hav no idea how to join in the conversation, so rather then i irritate pple by toking nonsense, wudnt it be better if i jus keep my mouth shut! yea! muahahahha and seriously... im not tat open minded i guess, tats y i cant engage in certain conversations well enuf lahs... so yea... my bad... dengs! i'll get into the conversation agn if it interests me or ive got sumthing to say, other then that ive got nothing to say... ahahah

tmr gonna relax fully so i'll be ready for next week... dengs study study study... i believe its much better than having to work every day!

oh yeah, pple... if u all got any opinions abt me, cut me some slack, gimme a break and dun tell me... im having enuf with those i ord got! so thk u and pleasure talking to u all! woots

2007-01-13T00:45:00.000+08:00

so today was taufik batisah's concert, and then there was flaunt! it, and groove coliseum is over, finally! and had my second pract! it was raining almost the whole day...so yea, a nice weather to sleep but i had sch from 12! sux...

have not met wit them mofos for a week ord i tink... every1's been bz so yea hopefully we'll meet soon... ahahah and my studying plans are going as planned! dengs... i really hope i can get a C at least, if not better... and who got christina aguilera - hurt? and keane - we might as well be strangers, and making april - these are the nights, and caffeine - far away??? send me if ani of u got it! thx

and yah, jus now on our way back from mosque, took a bus back to sch cus it was raining, but then the traffic stopped for damn long, at first tot it was the red lights, but it was too long, so we decided to alight from the bus, and we walked a few metres down and saw a freaking tree fell onto a bus, and that covered the whole 3 lane road!! so every vehicle got stuck there and god noes how long the traffic got held up there, good thing we alighted or yea, god noes how long i'll be cursing pple... ahahah

so we walked thru the rain, and i walked thru the rain so many times today! and it jus makes me happy! =) i dunno, its jus sumthing i wanted to do for so long... and i got to do it today! its jus so nostalgic for one reason! ahahah i rmb when i was young, my mum wud bring me down to fetch my dad =) i miss him! and my mum taught me this kampong game, whereby u dropped a piece of leaf into the drain and let it flow... so yea i wud drop it at one point, and then i'll follow it thru the drain til it dropped into and underground drain, whereby i can no longer see it! under the rain with my cute lil raincoat! and my mum wud challenge me sumtimes and she'll use the smaller leaves and outrun my bigger ones... ahahah it was fun looking the leaves flow, getting so engrossed wit sumthing so simple! i ma play it again one day... i wanan find the longest drain in singapore, and drop it at the starting point, and i wanna follow it all the way to aniwhere! maybe it will bring me to a mermaid's place! ahahaha but if tats not possible, i wanna go play in the rain! i wanna walk in the raiN! i wanna dance in the rain! ok maybe i shud do tat! rain rain come today!! lil shafiq wanna play!

i wanna be a small kid again.... its jus ironic that when u were young, u wanna be older, but now when ur old u wanna be young again..

i guess surprises are everywhere, every corner... ahahah i dunno, i guess im anticipating sum stuffs to happen, listening to others talk, and yes unfortunately im swayed by wat others talk, true or not, but part of me says it is,... and yah i wun be totally shocked if those stuffs happen, but unfortunately the things wun be really what i'll consider nice but i do hope its not true...

nobody can ever really noe wat another individual is thinking, feeling or gg thru. the best that we can do is try to understand them, and make things easier for them i guess... i swear nobody will ever noe wats my full story, cus basically im not tat good at expressing myself, especially wit words, although ironically i talk alot.. but u can tell a lil wats gg on in my life by jus observing me, and yea, thats how sumtimes i try to understand wat others are gg thru, observe them, altho i mite not be always right, but i do believe in my own judgement. sumtimes i dun realise it, sumtimes i dun eve notice it, and sumtimes its jus too late for me before i realise wats gg on...ok it seems a lil crappy, i told u im not good at expressing myself, but seriously i like to talk, tats y i dun mind sitting down and jus talk n talk n talk n talk...=) depending on the person and topic! ahahaha yea yea im not tat nice but this world is not tat nice! so its ok! ahahah i guess...

ok i ma go slp now ord, my eyes are really heavy, and i need a good rest, i really really hope i can kick off my mugging season next week! pls...

2007-01-12T00:05:00.000+08:00

i cant tink of wat to write for today.
so yea.
im having a thumping headache anw.

shitty

2007-01-10T22:16:00.000+08:00

well well well.... ok im actually suppose to update abt sum shows on the tv... ytd... but then blogger screwed up! so yea, i ma post it now...today! ahahahha

yea so watched the arena ytd... sum new stuffs on ch5, trying to make sum debate competition look like those reality shows like singapore idol... ahahahha i tink the image change is good but a lil too drastic! ahaha but the fight was there between loyang sec and RI! ahahah like wth... a neighbourhood sch filled wit mats pitching against sum rich smart ass bastard! ahahaha but loyang proved all those stereotypes wrong by winning it and they gg thru to the quarter finals! anw the motion for it was sumthing like 'good looks triumph effort!' hahahaha and the final female debator from loyang sec... i must say shes really good at this... seriously articulate... she mite jus be our first female prime minister! ahahhaha

and then watched laguna beach! ahahah sum reality show on mtv tat ive been watching since it started!! ahahah typical teen shows, but kristin from the previous 2 seasons is cute cute cute!!!!! ahahahha anw they were having their proms in this episode, and yah they had proms for the previous 2 seasons too! aahahha but it seems this season prom is a lil boring! but filled wit lotsa drama!!! hahaha anw tat aside, wat im trying to say is that i jus wish that i can experience another prom once more time before i enter ns and i become a man... well...now i kinda regret not joining jc... sux! at least u get to dress up real nice, ask a girl to be ur prom date and see her dressed up in a pretty dress! yea i tink gals dressed up in dress are reall cute and cool! ahahahah and in laguna beach, the guys will like come out wit cool ideas to ask the gals out! like super cool! wahawhawhwah i tink i'll tink of sumthing real cool too! creativity baby! ahahah okok i tink i'll try to think wat i'll do then i'll post it in the next post! ahaahah and then they've got the after party! and they get to rent a hummer limo! damn pimped out! woots

prom prom prom! i want a blardy prom!!!! polytechnics! they dun hav proms! ahahahha and tat sux! i wanna dress up real well for a last prom! cus i didnt really dressed up well for my sec sch prom! dengs! ahahah so yea i really wanna have one last prom experience! students' union! pls see this! u all are suppose to serve the student population! so get a blardy prom in rather than waste money on stupid stuffs! ahahah ok i tink i can get sued for defamation! wahawhawhhwa oh yea! 1 more thing, dun do it amg schools only! cus sch of electrical & electronics have like guys making up 99% of its student population! ahahah make it a mixed one! weeee PROM PROM PROM for me!!!! i want! then i will dress up! then i will dance! it wud be even cooler if its by the beach under the stars! muahahah man tat wud be cool! ok stop here!

ahahahha ok now!we start on today! which is 10/01/07! today is seriously a really weird day... i dunno... i mean its really weird! from my dreams all the way till now... and i feel funny, if my tots are really true... anw mr 'mind'... i tot i told u to go on a long holiday? ahahha

anw... hav u ever noticed that sumtimes, u become someone u dun really like when u try so hard not to be one? get wat i mean? dengs i mean i myself experience it, i tried so hard not to be like erm... ok i cant tink of an example now! ahahah but yea ive got my flaws! ahahahha

***pple have their own wants... and wat do u want seriously? now and every other time. i wanna noe, pending on if u wanna tell. and if u wanna talk... lets talk? or do u like it tis way? =) u need me to tell you everything that i want? cus i didnt say wat i wanted clear enuf at the first time? i'll say it again... but do u wanna listen? lets finish everything tat needs to be finished. and if wat u wrote is really abt me, then i ma tell u that this is abt you, so i believe tats clear enuf? and pls disregard this if i was wrong, and its not abt me, and i sincerely apologise. cus i jus jump to conclusions too easily and yes tats not good. i dun even noe if u'll read this...ahahah. anw if its really abt me, lets talk, my treat for the first drink! and settle it so we live on peacefully. in case u still dun get it, im refering to u my close friend =). tats really clear enuf i guess! but jus disregard this if im wrong, or if u need to. =D ***

sumtimes pple get so busy, busy with work, with their own interests, with their own life. that they forget about other stuffs, the simple things in life, the minor details that happen that cud just make a major difference... and sumtimes pple get so busy spotting someone else's mistake, that they forget to notice wat that someone else has done for them. no matter if its big, it will seem small to them becus of a mistake. tats how humans react i guess? psychology seems cool! ahahaha

anw, like i was saying in previous posts, im reading 'flags of our fathers' rite now. basically its abt the lives of the 6 man that helped to raise the american flag on mt suribachi at iwo jima in WWII. seriously every1 shud read it, cus it tells u abt wat really happened, and how media destroyed the glorious truth... besides that, it tells u abt brotherhood amg the marines, imagine this, all of them were willing to die for their other comrades. and what, most of them merely trained tgt for merely 1 year? yea, tell me, how many of ur frens ard u now wud die for u? ok, lets not say die, lets jus say sacrifice their time and such for u? ok as for me, i believe there is, ok i really HOPE there is! ahahahha cus ive not been a good friend lah!!! ahahhaha =p so yea... jus go read it! and who has the dvd for this movie! lend it to me pls!!!!!! =D and im trying to slow down the rate of my reading, so i wun have to finish reading it too early, but then its ncie tat i cant jus stop reading! hahaha irony! and yah who got the dvd! pls pls lend it to me! ive not been to the movies for like... i dunno when! ahahah

anw tats all for today, ive got schwork! i have to study for my exams! so yea, maybe i'll state my points regarding the motion tat was debated in the arena in the next post? ahahah so yea... til then! which i tink is tmr...? ahahah been updating regularly...dengs

2007-01-08T00:35:00.000+08:00

im suppose to be sleeping cus sch starts early tmr... but here i am, cus i cant sleep! ahhaha been rolling ard the bed for like 30 mins, and in the end i gav up, i woke up, i went to the toilet to pee, and here i am now!!! ahhahaha

weeee...and now im bored... no actually tired lahs...dengs wtf... anw the new internet explorer sux, cus it slows down my comp and lags alot!

so the male mofos all gg taiwan during the holidays! like wtf...to catch sum taiwan babes, and i cant follow, cus ive got attachment and im totally broke...sux... so yea i'll be here in sg doing my attachment but at least the 2 dumbies will be in sg! at least i can disturb them!wahawhawhahaha

flaunt it this fri and yeaps, i do hope its gonna be a success, ahahahah noe wat i mean. ive got my doubts but who cares!!! ahahah

oh yah, who got nice storybooks to lend me...cus yea, at the rate im going wit the current book, i tink i mite jus finish it by the end of this week, which is very fast according to my standards, and yah i dun wanna end up w/o any books to read....

yea, my mind my mind my mind, can u jus jump out of my head so tat i dun hav to be tired by you, cus seriously im tired wit all these thoughts in my mind, i dun wanna tink abt it! i wanna live happilY! like when i was young! no problems! care-free! this world really sux, and wit u ard, i jus cant stop thinking of all these stuffs and then i'll be so tired of my own thoughts and i'll be so down like for eg now, i cant slp, cus while lying down, i start to think, and then it never stops and so here we have it.... jus go and hav sum holidays for urself, come back only when i need u! pls will u do tat for me! i swear i'll treat u better if u do this for me! after all, ur mine... so u better get ur ass moving! muahahahah
my god this is crazy.... yeaps i tink im gg crazy... is this bad? ahahahha i hope its nto tat serious! ahahahh i ve got a great future ahead of me! ok maybe not but i wanna live life to the fullest! and i was asking lala and batam, how old wud u wanna grow old till? then i told them i never wanna grow old pass 60++, cus i dun wanna be a burden to my family and walk ard everywhere weak and all, then they said that wud be selfish of me... then i told them, i'll make sure everything will be perfect for them before i leave! and speaking of family, i want to have 3 kids! 2 guys and a gal! so tat the guys can protect my daughter, and i swear to love them alot! jus like my parents!ahahah but well tats long ago, but i do noe i wanna have 3 kids! tats not alot! ahahahah and yah, then i told them i dun wanna be too rich! but at least more money then i need lah... ahahah ok confusing! cus i dun wan my children to be fighting for it when i leave! i'll make sure i raise them well!!! hahahah and now i feel like i wanna be an entrepreneur! set up my own business! ok 'pop' my balloon! hahaha im dreaming too much! ahahahah

it seems a lil stupid writing all these here, but well...ahahah at least i can rant ard!!! hahaha anw i really really hope once i go back to bed, i wun start to think agn! cus it really sux and its tiring and its torturing...i guess i jus gotta keep talking and talking so that i wun stop to start to thinK! ahahahah if only theres a device where u can talk to it! ahahahah ok nvm, that mite jus be possible in the future! ahahah... yea i guess i need to find a friend that wun get tired of me ranting to them everytime! ahahahah my cats? well they've got too short of attention span!ahhahah talk talk talk! i wanna talk my life away! wahawhawhaw! weeeeee

anw another phrase i came up with, well to help me boost my confidence a lil! ahahha

'Sure you can find someone better than me, but you'll never find another me.'
-Shafiq =)

well, so yea its also to remind me, that every1 is unique, and i'll lose out myself if i lose my friends! even if i manage to find new ones! i'll never forget my past! =)

2007-01-07T01:01:00.000+08:00

so yea... didnt start off the year quite tat well wit tat first post! haha...well shiet happens so yea.

and last month, december was seriously my worst december ever i tink.. but no matter, december is always and will always be my favourite month and period, cause its the festive and holiday period and also my bday! and yah... that explains also why my favourite no is 12(december is the 12th month of the year anw in case sum of ya'll dunno).

anw yah... it was the worst one ever cause yeaps lotsa stuffs happened, but it wasnt all bad, cus i dunno.... rite now it seems that i shud make the best out of everything, believe that sum1 out there is gg thru the same shiet as me, or even worse... so yea, but that never meant that i cant be put down! cus yea, believe it or not im human afterall and i do have emotions! so vuallaa... i dun tink i'll go into much detail cus yea, any1 can read this from all ard the world and yah, i dun tink its sumthing im comfortable wit. so yea, my mind was in a real whirlwind and everythin was moving so fast and i jus kept it to myself even though i feel like jus pouring it out to sum1 but still yea i guess no point telling any1 anw, maybe one day i will! ahahahah i dunno lah... and its not only 1 problem, it jus keeps piling up and i feel like im in depression! wahawhawh dengs...

anw yah, i believe talking things out is the best solution for anything, but it depends on the person if they can sit there and last it or jus stop halfway and say 'tats it, im done, im tired, if tats how it is, then let it be', cus i tink thats sad... and yah a comprimise wudnt be reached and so, the prob persists and it will inflate and by then it wud be too late to save it... so vualla, again its the decision u make. no guns to ur head and if tats ur final one, i guess no problems can be solved if all u tink is having the easiest way out, and not sacrificing or gg thru troubles for it... cus if tired is ur reason, tats the bullshietest excuse on earth, cus man, get it in ur head that that just shows u dun care, u dun treasure it and seriously go jump down! hahaha ok stop here! ahahah cause no matter if the problem is that stupid or sum other stuffs, still jus talk abt it and ensure that its not tat big a problem cus it mite jus add on to other problems and taaaddaaaa...

oh yeah... and i watched 'Shall we dance?' on hbo or is it star movies... yah then theres this part, after his wife found out that he dances and was wrong abt him having an affair, so he stopped dancing altogether to make sure there'll be no more misunderstanding, even aft his wife suggested that he teached her how to dance so they can dance tgt,... then he said sumthing like this to her,
'having u as my wife is one of the proudest thing that happened in my life, and sumtimes i'll put aside my happiness, and keep it away to make sure that you'll be happy and i wun hurt u'
so yea, i guess that if sum1, ur friend or ur beloved one especially, never commented anithing, it doesnt mean that they are totally fine, but then they're jus keeping things to themselves and trying to make sure that they wun hurt u if they were to pour out their unhappiness... and u shud at least ask them instead of expecting them to tell u everything cus tat way, they noe at least that u wanna noe and they wun feel uneasy to tell u... so yea, personally i feel easier to open up to sum1 who ask abt me rather then jus go up to others and tell them abt wat i feel... i guess so do many other pple...hahaha

anw i was saying tat any1 can read this, imagine 1 hot ang moh gal reading this and then fell in love wit me.... like woah... ahahah ok im dreaming...wtf ahhaahha

anw the mofos has been a great support cus yea, altho i dun tell them stuffs, they do noe shiets gg on and yah they did ask me but they never crossed the boundary when i needed space, and they were there when i needed them, especially my beloved wife, lala! see! im appreciating u! u shud be grateful man!! and my grandson, cute lil ong!awawhawhawh so yea thank you. anw its really amazing how we all got tgt...seriously... tat nite, me batam and musmus tried to recall how it all started at esplanade. and we can never really like confirm how it really started, with the fact that we never really met a few months aft o levels... and we are not so super close, all of us, when we were in the same class... ok maybe we were quite close lah, the back pple, me, ong, musmus, faiz always disturbing lala, and tat stupid batam act dao! blardy hell! and yah bhoon always crash our class to join in and fir like get to noe us only when he was in the same class wit faiz in mj. i guess amazing things do start out simple... =)
and yah, seriously... they've always been there for me, when i was always coming late, thx to union..stupid union...hahahah, they will wait for me! ahahah and i swear its really really late and its a handful no of times.... ahhaha... i guess thats sumthing im proud to hav! i dunno i guess tat this is one of the greatest thing that happened for me in 2006, we got closer tgt! and yah, batam and lala was saying tat they went shopping once then this lady asked them, 'u all sisters?' then they said 'nopes, friends...since sec sch...' then the lady continued, 'oooo... u noe that ur sec sch friends are the ones that u will keep thruout ur life...' so yea, i hope we'll still hang out even aft we get married....
oh yah then that day we were talking abt migrating, then we say why not we all migrate tgt...then aft that we buy one piece of land and start a villa, then i suggested 'tats good, then after that we can marry our children wit each other!!!' wahawhawh and tat stupid lala jus gotta eeeeee damn long! wahawhawhwah jacko! i guess i'll talk more abt all this in another posts?? ahahah

but yeah...its nice to reminisce old stuffs... and i do hope tat sum things never change... and yea, i have a few in particular in mind..=S hahaha but yah, no matter things move on, and altho its the new year, im still having problems catchin up wit everything, everthings like so fast-paced...and yah, im caught up in all of its web... imagine this, i love to sleep alot, and guess wat, everyday i'll sleep ard 2am the earliest... and wake up at 8.30am.. so yea i guess im having sleeping disorder rite now, and yah everytime i wake up, my mind jus start to wander and its really torturing everyday...sux! sumtimes i jus wish that i cud sleep 23hrs a day and jus spend 1 hr awake...tat way my wild mind wun hav those stupid tots, like now...ahahah! but well well well, at least now i find a new hobby, and believe it or not, its reading! and its super weird cus ive never liked reading all my 18 years of life, but when i started now, i jus dun wanna stop cus seriously it brings me to a place where i dun hav to think of such stuffs...and rite now im on 'Flags of our Fathers' that i bought for almost 17 bucks!! my first ever storybook that i ever bought!hahah but its damn nice and ive not watched the movie lah...so yea... i'll talk abt it in another post! been damn long ord! ahahah but i'll end wit one sentence from the book....

Mothers should negotiate between nations.
The mothers of the fighting coutries would agree:
Stop this killing now. Stop it now.
- YOSHIKUNI TAKI

2007-01-03T23:27:00.000+08:00

FUCK U BITCHES BIG TIME MAN! shiet! if only words cud kill, u'll be dead by now man!!! fking bitches! aye man, if theres really a fking problem, get ur balls even tho ur a freaking bitch and talk it out man! wat runaway bitch? how far can u runaway man! even if u runaway from here, u'll fucking rot in hell, and i'll hurl all the fking curse at u bitch! yea rite, this is fucking useless cus its no use scolding all the fked up words rite here, but at least i can let go my anger! fkers man! go get ur fucking ass drunk and get raped and get pregnant get a fking daughter and let her get raped by ur fking drunkass bf and see how it feels like man! fkers man wats wrong wit u bitches! cant u all jus fking talk instead of not replying! fkers! if u all bitches wanan fking ignore me, fk settle the fking problem and that get me off ur back for all i care cus u noe wat...i dun fking wit ur fking life, but i ma get wat belongs to me bitch! u wanna play games lets play! i play games the way u fkers wanna play and if i fking get into trouble at least my fking anger is off! killing myself over this kinda stupid fkin stuffs is dumb man! big time! shiet u all bitches die and rot in hell flesh all hanging off from ur nostrils! bitches! fuck man! and to all those other fkers bastard and bitches, if theres any prob, i suggest tat its better if u all bring down ur asses to sum bitchass table and talk things out over a drink man...to me or ur other friends seriously the time wasted there is worth it bitchass

2006-12-31T01:23:00.000+08:00

AD over just now! so jeff has one load off his back now! wahawhawh
so every1 dressed up, and yea they looked great! woots

any1 up for a slacking session by the beach and jus sit there and talk and talk and talk and talk and talk!!! ahahah i like to jus sit down and talk and talk and talk and talk and talk! and it wud even be greater wit the sea breeze and the beautiful night starry sky! woots woots! hands up for those who want!! weeee weee wee!!! dengs hahaha

anw, thank you for wat u did jus now... although it might seem minor, sumtimes its the little teeny weeny tiny stuffs that matters. so yea, i really really appreciate it! thanka a zillion! =)=)=)

2006-12-30T13:52:00.000+08:00

life is a bore now...hahaha

guess wat i was doing... brushing away little tiny specks of dust off my computer table....ahahah it was fun a lil tho, looking at them fly ard, while trying to avoid them having contact wit my nostrils! wahawhhwhwa...or not it would be major mayhem for me! dengs... so there's the AD later at SPGG... and then 2 days later would be the end of 2006... tmr would be Hari Raya Haji... ahahah weeee holidays... festive festive festive!!! hitting the books real real real soon... shud have been at it last 2 weeks, but yea...u noe... procrastination...

bored bored bored...ahahah and i dun even noe wat im doing here! wahawhawhawh purrrfect! my cats yea my cats! they be slping now i tink...sumwhere? i dunno where... u noe wat! i dunno wat.....blearghs stoooooopid!

nothing sux! everything rox! yes! optimism! wahawhawh altho yea lotsa stuff sux! but no matter, it rox! wawhahawhawhaw rox rox rox! go go go! read on! everything will be stupid... wahahhw aint tat good! =) pathetic... loserish! suckish! ish this ish that shake shake shake!

i like this! woots
Nowadays everybody wanna talk like they got something to say
But nothin comes out when they move they lips
Just a buncha gibberish

lalalalalalala... bored as hell! well well well! lalalalal seriously u can see how bored i am rite! wahawawhawh wow! woots! m i happy? i dunno! ahahahh i hope i am! weeeee yea, i do feel like im missing sumthing! =S ahahhah shiet! woots but but but... i dunno wahawhawha... boredom boredom boredom! bang bang bang! shoot shoot shoot! ladies and gentlemen!...i guess i ma go slp ord! so long! ey wait now my brother asked me to follow him go colour his hair!ahahha wtf

2006-12-23T23:32:00.000+08:00

i miss you. i really do... =S
and well, i really hope u do too... =D

my life, my style! weets weets weets! happy happy happy! yeah!

festive season now,
merry christmas, selamat hari raya aidiladha and a very happy new year to all! =D

2006-12-10T09:48:00.000+08:00

see...im fickle minded... i jus said tat i wudnt blog agn...but here i am blogging! ahahha... anw hatred fills me up now...so excuse me for all these stuffs i ma type...muahahha.. i guess wat yoda said was true... all started off from fear..!!! hahah who said star wars sux! so wat if it sux! i like it so u can suck ur popsicles out loud!hahaha

im seriously getting tired of being pushed ard, being taken for granted, being second to everything and yes im willing to take chances now even if theres risks involve! it really really puts me down everytime i tink abt stuffs, and especially with a mind ive got that never stops thinking abt ridiculous stuffs too... its jus so tiring! i dun giv a shiet rite now if pple tink im not understanding or have an attitude cus im jus not tat nice and perfect enuf to live life this way! muahahah i expect more, and i believe i can work for it, cus seriously i want the best for myself!
friends? rite now i tink they dun last, or u can never be sure they are there for u everytime! hahah well excluding sum of cus, and they deserve commendation from me! and they duly deserve it! see... i believe in karma and what goes does come ard... i treat pple nicely and i seriously do hope that pple treat me nicely too, and if i treat them badly, i dun give 2 cents abt how they treat me... and wat pple think of me... well? tell them to f off cus they can say, then maybe i'll get affected for awhile and then i'll let them kiss ma arse clean!
i'm almost 18, and ive grown up, altho not tat much, but ive gone thru lots of shiets too, so those pple out there that thinks they noe so much, tell them i noe tat much abt 18 years of life too!! its jus stupid to always hear pple pointing to me tat im wrong, tat theres a better way, man i appreciate tat advice, but noe where to stop, cus im easily irritated by fkers tat i dun tink i wanna listen to!
im jus filled up wit so much hatred tat i find being alone sumtimes serves a purpose! wit music tat is! but well sumtimes it jus gets me to start thinking abt stupid stuffs and then i'll feel low agn! ironic! how contradicting i am!
So wateva... 18 soon and seriously i dun look forward to turning 18! cus i jus feel tat theres more shiets to come as i grow older! i wanna be young agn! a small kid! see... irony again! i wanna play wit toys! i wanna hold my mum's hands and walk ard everywhere! i wanna cry when i see my 2 big brothers leaving me alone at home as they go out! i wanna wrestle wit my dad when my mum cooks chilli prawns! i wanna tink abt gg home to play soccer at the void deck wit my neighbors! i wanna spend time wit my cuzzins and hav fun! i dun wanna feel down becuz of everything tat happens ard me, friends, relationship, money, future, politics! i wanna dream abt wat i wanna be when i grow up! i wanna suck my pacifier and run ard in my pampers! i wanna dance to lame music on those advertisements! i jus wanna live life, not knowing abt the bad side of it, so innocent and naive of everything! knowing tat i will never fall, knowing tat sum1 will be there to catch me, sum1 tat will cheer me up if i cry, knowing everything wud be perfect cus i noe it wud!
18 years old? eligible to club? eligible to drink? eligible to do mroe stuffs?eligible to have sex? ey wait tats 16.. but wtf, club ur life away... drink ur life away... if that makes u happy i'll respect wateva pple do, jus giv my life a break when i need to!
freedom is wat u want? freedom is wat u'll get? but can u handle the freedom u were given? i cant, and so do many other 'matured adults' cus life shud be 'enjoyed'? ahahah laugh my arse off and excuse me for my comment cus well ur life rite?!?!/ i shudnt giv a hood abt it, cus my lifes not perfect at all!
tats my rant...more to say, but well i dunno how to say rite now... haters out there?dun worry i m a hater too, so i cant complain abt u fkers... but being me, i'll keep complaining, tinking im oh so perfect...hahah dun get wat i mean? then if u bother or even care abt bothering, hav sum initiative and ask me and dun wait for me to tell u everything cus its jus oh so stupid cus i wun noe if u wanna even noe! =) life? 18 years of it and more to come unfortunately! weets

2006-12-06T22:42:00.000+08:00

blogging seems stupid to me nowadays... ahahah cus its jus tat u get to rant and all, but u jus dunno who ur like relating it to... so yea... i guess i'll blogging agn when my brain cells starts to change my tots agn...weets anw im lost so yea woots

2006-11-28T20:37:00.000+08:00

To fkers tat may concern,
yes rite now im pretty much pissed and well done, u all fkers did a good job if u all were aiming to piss me off. well u noe wat, no other fkers did force u fkers to take up this job wit a gun point-blank at ur mfking heads so u fkers tat accept this job mite as well jus do a great job cus its on ur own freaking accord. y accept it when u all think its jus fking wasting ur time and not do it and go freaking miss my fking head off man...shiet. if u cant really do, cant u jus freaking hell tell me the truth or at least inform me the very least and lemme noe instead of getting my arse all worried and find out u didnt even do nothing abt it man...sure i mite blast my head off or push ur freaking arse but man, at least tell me...y scared ur freaking face will drop, then get a freaking mask and cover it up and jus slack one corner eating popsicles man...welcome to this world man, u aint gonna get nothing for free! shiet man, ok maybe i myself come up wit stupid reasons to cover my arse up, but at least i noe my limits i guess...freak man... shiet i tink im jus contradicting myself...f man! it jus shows how irritated n pissed i am... and all this shiet aint gonna end aft dec 1st, mmsp, but i guess it will end only when my life ends... but f it man... jus tink how life wud be more wonderful wit lesser fkers...damn it! at least i rant my arse off here rather than waste my breath on u fkers...shiet i dun even noe if u all will read this or not, but who cares... sum things jus have their limits, and u shud be smart enuf to not cross it...

at least im home early today...and it feels rather good... f it... but shiet lah, its not tat good oso...ah shiet, im contradicting again.. wateva lah... care if u want to cus i wish everything can go my way, but well it dont so i gotta live wit it... =) dengs
i wish

"this is me, and these words are mine"
ShaFiQ
Showstopping woots woots

2006-11-25T23:40:00.000+08:00

walus!

wooah! projects assignments all piling up! yay i guess! cus hopefully this will help to pull my grades up, after passing only 3 papers out of like 6?!?! wahawh marvelous! i feel sad but at the same time i fully deserve it! so yea, gonna start studying real hard real soon! i will STUDY!! muahahahah very soon lah...

so mmsp is this friday...hahahah most stuffs settled, but well there'll always be a lil sumthing that wun be settled...ahahah the irony! wtf part of me cant wait for it to jus end part of me hoping that we can have more time to settle everything.... ahhaha well fact is its gonna be over real soon so yea, gonna jus like give everything i can and jus see how things work out on the finals...hopefully it wud be great so u all mofos who wanna go can get the tix at Union Clubhouse for only 5 bucks! it wud be on 1st dec at SP convention centre... yea so jus grab it and come down! ahahaha it wud be quite cool trust me!

rite now, i jus feel like going to the beach to jus slack and feel the cool sea breeze brush through my face!!! and wud be great if i can like slack there with a special friend and jus talk abt everything and crap and hav sum fun! yea tat wud be great! waawhahaw! weeeeeeeeee! dengs...

surprises let me noe she cares! nananananananan...

2006-11-13T23:05:00.000+08:00

Elearning sux! My MST sux! i screwed my first paper just now! and im damn sure i ma screw the remaining 5 papers! woots and still im not studying or doing anithing abt me! how pathetic....dengs!i jus wan it to be over and then maybe when i get the results, i will be shocked then i'll start to study for the final papers! no one to be blamed except myself cus i never bothered to study except to read a lil... so yea its my own fault! wonderful...

In order to receive, you need to also give...

i believe in this phrase, i believe in karma, in reciprocal... and right now im damn tired of giving cus rite now i feel that im not getting wat i want, but maybe im jus expecting too much... blearghs

sumtimes i believe sum pple shud jus be taught a lesson, regardless of who they r... u make the mistakes, then be prepared to face the music... give them face, its not gonna help them nor urself... they mite jus repeat it in the future. it seriously gets me sick in the stomach to see pple in the wrong and jus gets away wit it, or maybe i mite be wrong of them. but if i were to make a mistake, point out to me, and if i agree tat it was mine, i believe i'll carry my own arse to face the music =)
sumtimes u noe more than others, sumtimes others noe more than you do... sumtimes u tink u noe more than them, but in real fact they mite noe more than you do and vice versa... so wat do you say? i dunno =) dengs! ahaks...

nuff said, im tired =S... this is a nice song, a song for the soul. taken from A Shark's Tale.

India.Arie - Get It Together
One shot to your heart without breaking your skin
No one has the power to hurt you like your kin
Kept it inside, didn't tell no one else
Didn't even wanna admit it to yourself
And now your chest burns and your back aches
From 15 years of holding the pain
And now you only have yourself to blame
If you continue to live this way

[Chorus:]
Get it together
You wanna heal your body?
Get it together
You have to heal your heart
Whatsoever you sow you will reap
Get it together

You can fly fly

Dark future ahead of me
That's what they said
I'd be starving if I ate all the lies they fed
Cause I've been redeemed from your anguish and pain
A miracle child I'm floating on a cloud
Cause the words that come from your mouth
You're the first to hear
Speak words of beauty and you will be there
No matter what anybody says
What matters most is what you think of yourself

[Chorus]

The choice is yours
No matter what it is
To choose life is to choose to forgive
You don't have to try
or hurt him and break his pride
Just shake that weight off
And you'll be ready to fly

One shot to your heart without breaking your skin
No one has the power to hurt you like your friends
Thought it would never change but as time moved on
That ugly duckling grew up to be a swan
And now your chest burns and your back aches
Because now the years are showing up on your face
But you'll never be happy
And you'll never be whole
Until you see the beauty in growing old
[Chorus]
[chorus]
you can fly fly fly fly...
you can live or you can die
you know that life is a choice you make
you can give or you can take

you can fly fly fly fly
you can fly fly fly fly...

2006-11-09T00:36:00.000+08:00

hey hey hey!

been sick these few days! hooray! flu since friday! yay yay yay! recovering ord! e-learning sux as usual, no sch but the workload they give us is horrendous! and ive been gg to sch everyday for classes and union shiet! wonderfully cool! wat can i say! MST's next week and ive got 6 papers in 5 days! again wonderfully cool! ive only revised so much cuz of my flu and i will study all the way this few days! 'A' levels ending soon, which is good, cuz that means i can meet mofos again and slack off! woots! anw, do get tix for mmsp and come down to support it! 5 bucks only! cheap shiet!

and i wanna have a unique life, and seriously its really a weird one. And truthfully im still wondering wat i really want out of life, but im damn sure of certain pple i dun really wish to associate with and i do have a reason at least, although it might be really immatured or dumb sumtimes. Anw im really not tat perfect too so i believe theres pple who dun wish to associate wit me and i think its normal... aint it? haahha! dengs

Breaking Benjamin - The Diary Of Jane
If I had to
I would put myself right beside you
So let me ask
Would you like that?
Would you like that?

And I don't mind
If you say this love is the last time
So now I'll ask
Do you like that?
Do you like that?

No!

Something's getting in the way
Something's just about to break
I will try to find my place in the diary of Jane
So tell me how it should be

Try to find out what makes you tick
As I lie down
Sore and sick
Do you like that?
Do you like that?

There's a fine line between love and hate
And I don't mind
Just let me say that I like that
I like that

Something's getting in the way
Something's just about to break
I will try to find my place in the diary of Jane
As I burn another page
As I look the other way
I still try to find my place in the diary of Jane
So tell me how it should be

Desperate, I will crawl
Waiting for so long
No love, there is no love
Die for anyone
What have I become

Something's getting in the way
Something's just about to break
I will try to find my place in the diary of Jane
As I burn another page
As I look the other way
I still try to find my place
In the diary of Jane

2006-11-03T00:08:00.000+08:00

pple keep saying this and that, but what matters more are the actions they take after what they have said.
excuses are everywhere and seriously i dunno am i suppose to believe them or not! haha its damn tiring! seriously seriously seriously! now im seriously thinking! sumtimes it jus make me think if pple are really telling the truth or not! woots dengs
ahahha not saying that i dun lie and all, but sumtimes it jus gets a lil too tiring if it happens a lil too many times! dengs and it gets a lil too irritating if same things are repeated time n time again! haha dengs wth

I listen to you talk
But talk is cheap
And my mouth is filled with blood
From trying not to speak

miss =)

2006-11-02T01:38:00.000+08:00

life life life! woots woots woots!

i dunno wat to update seriously! ahaks, i dunno if my life is on the up or down! try figuring that out! ahaks...dengs

sumtimes, not talking is the problem, and this is really a big problem... and we always think that everything will be solved jus by talking for awhile and then we try to forget it...but actually i guess theres really more to it... dengs...

hahah if only in this world...i can see thru wat pple r really thinking or feeling!! ahaaks tat wud be impossible! ahaks i dunno im crapping! ahaks dengs!

maybe its jus me being envious!! ahaks i wish i can have all to myself =) i wish! wahaks

Curse my enemies forever
Let's slit our wrists and burn down something beautiful

i wanna cuddle!

2006-10-30T00:56:00.000+08:00

This song was written by plus-44, which consist of mark hoppus and travis barker, relating to the break up of blink-182. its nice =)

Plus-44 - No It Isn't
Please understand
This isn't just goodbye
This is I can't stand you
This is where the road crashed into the ocean,
It rises all around me and now we're barely breathing
A thousand faces will choose to ignore

Curse my enemies forever
Let's slit our wrists and burn down something beautiful
This desperation leaves me overjoyed
With fading lights that lead us past the lives that we destroy

I listen to you cry
I cry for less attention
But both my hands are tied
And I'm pushed into the deep end

I listen to you talk
But talk is cheap
And my mouth is filled with blood
From trying not to speak

So search for an excuse
And someone to believe you
In foreign dressing rooms
I'm empty with the need to

Curse my enemies forever
Let's slit our wrists and burn down something beautiful
This desperation leaves me overjoyed
With fading lights that lead us past the lives that we destroy

Curse my enemies forever
Let's slit our wrists and burn down something beautiful
This desperation is leaving me overjoyed
With fading lights that lead us past the lives that we destroy

Please understand
This isn't just goodbye
This is I can’t stand you

2006-10-29T03:32:00.000+08:00

Blink 182 - Down
The drops of rain they fall all over
This awkward silence makes me crazy
The glow inside burns light upon her
I'll try to kiss you if you let me
(this can't be the end)

Tidal waves they rip right through me
Tears from eyes worn cold and sad
Pick me up now, I need you so bad

Down down down down
Down down down down
Down down down down
Down down down down
It gets me so
Down down down down
Down down down down
Down down down down
Down down down down
It gets me so

Your vows of silence fall all over
The look in your eyes makes me crazy
I feel the darkness break upon her
I'll take you over if you let me
(You did this)

Tidal waves they rip right through me
Tears from eyes worn cold and sad
Pick me up now, I need you so bad.

Down down down down
Down down down down
Down down down down
Down down down down
It gets me so
Down down down down
Down down down down
Down down down down
Down down down down
It gets me so

2006-10-26T00:13:00.000+08:00

Evan & Jaron - Crazy for this Girl
She rolls the window down
And she
Talks over the sound
Of the cars that pass us by
And I don't know why
But she's changed my mind

Would you look at her
She looks at me
She's got me thinking about her constantly
But she don't know how I feel
And as she carries on without a doubt
I wonder if she's figured out
I'm crazy for this girl

She was the one to hold me
The night
The sky fell down
And what was I thinking when
The world didn't end
Why didn't I know what I know now

Would you look at her
She looks at me
She's got me thinking about her constantly
But she don't know how I feel
And as she carries on without a doubt
I wonder if she's figured out
I'm crazy for this girl

Right now
Face to face
All my fears
Pushed aside
And right now
I'm ready to spend the rest of my life
With you

Would you look at her
She looks at me
She's got me thinking about her constantly
But she don't know how I feel
And as she carries on without a doubt
I wonder if she's figured out
I'm crazy for this girl

Would you look at her
She looks at me
She's got me thinking about her constantly
But she don't know how I feel
And as she carries on without a doubt
I wonder if she's figured out
I'm crazy for this girl

2006-10-25T00:59:00.000+08:00

SURVEY.

1) How old do you wish you were?
i wish i was young and never have to grow old. Pri sch seems fun! so does sec sch! =)

2) Where were you when 9/11 happened?
i rmbed that when i woke up b4 gg for sch when i was sec 3 i tink, my mum say..'hey guess wat, osama jus attacked america...' wtf...haha

3) What do you do when vending machines steal your money?
curse and go away.. =) tats wat i usually do not only to vending machines! haha

4) Do you count yourself kind?
nah..dun tink so...ahahah

5) If you had to get a tattoo, where would it be?
i dun tink i'll ever get one!ahaha

6) If you could be fluent in any other language, what would it be?
spanish woots

7) Do you know your neighbors?
yeah...but they dun really speak english so yea...they'll talk and i'll jus say yes to everything...wats wit tat? ahaha

8) What do you consider a vacation?
gg overseas to slack off!

9) Do you follow your horoscope?
nah...but i read them sumtimes!

10) Would you move for the person you loved?
depends... =)

11) Are you touchy feely?
dun tink so...i guess hahaha

12) Do you believe that opposites attract?
yeah...mayb a lil...so tat way, we acn learn new stuffs from each other, so it doesnt get too boring

13) Dream job?
sum place i can earn much, but not sacrificing my time with my loved ones! i dunno lah... i cant picture my future rite now

14) Favorite channel(s)?
anything nice! i'll watch

15) Favorite place to go on weekends?
home...unless sum jacko ask me out to slack or sumthing! woots!

16) Showers or Baths?
Showers!

17) Do you paint your nails?
no!

18) Do you trust people easily?
nopes! =)

19) What are your phobias?
i dunno! ahahah life?

20) Do you want kids?
yes! 3 of them! woots

21) Do you keep a handwritten journal?
nah! dun tink so! ahaks! sum other place!

22) Where would you rather be right now?
by the beach with the sea breeze blowing my hair! =)

23) Who makes you feel warm and fuzzy?
gonna go search for it now! i dunno! wahaks

24) Heavy or light sleeper?
damn heavy! my drug!

25) Are you paranoid?
hell yeah! i tink too much!

26) Are you impatient?
depends!

27) Who can you relate to?
not many! dengs

28) How do you feel about interracial couples?
i guess its cool if they r really in love... i guess theres no barrier to it? ahahha

29) Have you been burned by love?
shud be? fiona xie loves me tho!

30) What's your favorite pick-up line?
im a coward! ahaks

31) What's your main ring tone on your mobile?
scars(acoustic)

32) What were you doing at midnight last night?
playing games!

33) What did the last text on your cellphone say?
sumthing to choon wee!

34) Whose bed did you sleep in last night?
my own!

35) What color shirt are you wearing?
white

36) Most recent movie you watched?
daddy day care on ch5

37) Name three things you have on you at all times?
wallet hp brain

38) What color are your bed sheets?
blue

39) How much cash do you have on you right now?
i dun really care! ahahahh

40) What is your favorite part of the chicken?
drumlets!

41) What's your favorite town/city?
i dunno! but seriously singapore is a good place to live

42) I can't wait till...
still tinking! ahaks dengs

43) What did you have for dinner last night?
ketupat !

44) How tall are you barefoot?
173cm... short ahahahha

45) Do you own a gun?
toy guns

46) What do you prefer to drink in the morning?
milo

47) Where do you think you'll be in 10 yrs?
i dun wanna tink abt the future...dengs

48) Last thing you ate?
lontong

49) What songs do you sing in the shower?
depends!

50) Last thing that made you laugh?
my nephew! bugger! ahahha

51) Worst injury you've ever had?
i neva had any serious injuries b4! wooohoo! and i dun wan to! ahahah

52) Does someone have a crush on you?
i wish for fiona xie! ahahah they will tell me if they do! so rite now no! woots!

53) What's your favorite candy?
anything sweet to my taste buds!

54) What song do you want played at your funeral?
none...let me pass away peacefully! =)

55) Five random people to do this! and why?
jus do it! tell me then i'll read it! ahahah i will!

Selamat Hari Raya! Maaf Zahir Batin to all! even the non-muslims! =)

2006-10-21T04:13:00.000+08:00

people come people go... only very few stay for long... r u one of them...???

i need a break... =)

2006-10-19T00:39:00.002+08:00

This blog...i dun tink shud hav too much contents of my personal life...hahah yea yea... im very secretive so im pretty much selective of wat shud be out and wat shud not be! =)

anw anw anw... i tink im more cheerful now aft last few days...but shiet stuffs still cant get outta my head so yea! woots woots woots! anw thx to 2 of my mofos for making it at the very last minute when i ask them out! and then we slacked! =)

i tink i need to go look for sum ways to let stuffs out of my head and open up? ahahah but i guess its gonna be hard for me! tsktsktstk! woots i guess i jus need to get this right thingy then not get sucked into this stuffs too much...aiya sux! woots

and yah i wanna read pple's thinking and feelings! woots! maybe a lil bit and not too much, hahaha! shafiq...hard to satisfy! wahawhwah dengs

life...=)? tell me abt it... if u want to...:)

And from the ballroom floor
We are in celebration
One good stretch before our hibernation
Our dreams assured and we all
Will sleep well

Watch you spin around
In your highest heels
You are the best one
Of the best ones

2006-10-15T03:20:00.000+08:00

its 3:13AM...im still awake.

im tired. im pissed, cuz i get every1 ard me pissed off. i jus made my mum cried, and no, its not a good feeling. plus the many others that got pissed becuz of me. sorie u all. anw, if theres still anymore imperfections ive got that i shud noe of, tell me now, get it solved so things can move on. u can tell me wat ur feeling too, cuz i cant read minds unfortunately, so dun expect me to noe wat ur tinking or feeling.

adding on to that, my right eye is sore, its damn red, damn irritating, damn itchy.
now im feeling the itch on my left one too... bravo.

ive got so many questions right now, and yes i wanna clear them and get sum answers at least. plus there are many things that i wud like to say but then i dunno how.

i noe tmr will be a great day, im being optimistic! yay.
and ya, not forgetting pple that tried to cheer me up.thx.

say goodbye.

2006-10-12T00:47:00.000+08:00

Life can be so nice and fun at one moment and be real sucky the next! tats life! woots dengs!

i dun care i wanna go shopping either this weekend or the next.
n i ma go watch the covenant and also save the last dance for me(korean drama). it looks sweet, the drama tat is. anw heres a song from the drama... check it out! its real nice i tink! =)

Give My Love (English Version) - Edward Chun
When I look in your eyes I can see that you
Want to be with me but you're so scared
And I don't know what to say or do
But the tears keep falling from your eyes
And I know that
Times won't change my love
And I can't do nothing to keep you

Oh, I'll give my love oh when I hold you tight
Give my love through kisses oh so bright
And you know that I can't change my love
Take my love all through the night…

As the hours pass away
You think that love ain't here to stay
Feel a beat from your chest
But you don't give doubt a moment's rest
You dream the future and all you see is dark
Listen to your heart, baby, the truth will set sparks

Now I'll give my love oh when I hold you tight
Give my love through kisses oh so bright
And you know that I can't change my love
Take my love all through the night…

Now I'll give my love oh when I hold you tight
Give my love through kisses oh so bright
And you know that time won't change my love
Take my love all through the night…

I'll give my love oh when I hold you tight
Give my love, through kisses oh so bright
And you know that I can't change my love
Take my love all through the night…

save the last dance for me! =)

2006-10-11T00:39:00.000+08:00

today is not a good day for me! seriously! sux! big big time! k firstly i woke up and had severe stomachaches! tats cool cuz i woke a lil earlier this morning so ive got all the time to clear my bowel!! ahhaha and then i reached class late but the earliest for an 8 am class! and the lecturer jus had to give me tat attitude! and during that class! i was scolded for sleeping! like wth! i mean in polytechnic!! i dun rmb getting scolded for tat! maybe once or twice, but then the lecturer wud str8 away go into my 'good' books! =) hahaha
then had to settle sum stuffs which were extra complicated this time! garhs and if thats not enough, aft my classes ends, i went back to saa to settle it once n for all. and on the way there, jus outside that pretty little saa, the painters had jus repainted the wall dark blue.... and so i was walking nearer to the 'wet paint' wall when i intended to giv way to a bangla construction worker who was carrying stuffs and then woo pe di doo, i graze across the dark-blue-wet-paint wall with my beautiful-one-of-my-favourite-white jacket...!!!! garhs! and bravo, there i have a huge patch of dark blue already-dried paint across my whole right arm of my jacket! and so i went into the office with the officers asking me 'omg! wat happened! tat jacket looks nice but now i guess its spoilt!' yes thank you! i noe! daym! and so i settled everything b4 i spent almost 1/2 hrs i tink in the toilet trying to scrap those paint away! and yes it did work a little, but let me emphasise on the word a little! garhs
and so yah...my day sux! garhs...no worries tmr wud be a brand new good day for me! =)

anw, regarding the SP musical, kudos to the cast and crew cuz they sumhow did rather well, seeing the effort they put in and all! ahahah i like the ending, i mean its abt friendships and relationships...and yah, i guess thats important in life, and yah theres the fun and the not so fun stuffs abt friendships and relationships! garhs...so lets ponder abt it! =) garhs! anw farhan sr! sorie if im a lil cold aites! im all good! ahaks

i gonna go slp soon ord...been really tired...sux... blearghs

anw heres another song, i tink its really cool! i dunno... got me wondering! sux! sumtimes sum stuffs do hav meanings! its really nice to me, plus the lyrics and all! enjoy! =)

Waking Ashland - I Am For You (Don't give up)
Something's very wrong here
Your heart has frozen over
and something's very strange here
You've lost all desire
The comfort we create to prove were something
But we're starving
Screaming in the night cause you want answers
From the one
And there is hope again

Don't give up your not thinking
Don't give up just keep seeking
And I, I am for you
And I, I will love you
And I, I am for you
And I, I will save you

Come and take my face or forever I will walk alone
And all the same mistakes
Cause I know you, I deny you
Days go by and choices still remain forever
Right and wrong is black and white
The illusions of this world
And there is hope again

I send my self to you
Yes always and always
I send my love to you

You found today, found today, you found today, saw today

Just to see you smile! =)

2006-10-08T21:49:00.000+08:00

weilos!
had banner painting thruout the whole night ytd for mmsp... and man it was tiring but yea, it was quite ok lah... the contestants this yr are pretty much interesting...ahahaha the stuffs they talk abt and wat they do... and then i heard the next morn the psi tat nite was 150!wtf and we were like in the open for the whole night breathing in those 'clean' air!!! like hell!!!

so yea, i tink the few weeks to come are more slack for me, which i kinda hope it does... so that i can get back on my feet agn...ahahah been so tiring this few weeks! and guess wat?!?! its ord wk 3 of sem 2...shiet and wk 7 or 8 is the mst(test), and then a few more weeks before i end my yr 2! and no the feeling is not nice, as wat every1 tot when they were a kid how cool it wud be to be older.... it sux! MMSP is in december... so yea, another year has passed again jus like tat...and yah time flies! but i tink it gets faster n faster everytime...shiet...it sux! oh yeah! b4 i forgot, liza rox! she sends me a few smiles on msn becuz i wrote 'bring me back little smiles' on my messenger personal msg! cool! thx! woots!

been blogging alot this past wk... ahaks, even when ive got stuffs to do... ahahha sumtimes, when u jus sit down doing nothing, u will jus start to think and reminisce abt the past, the good and the bad... sumtimes, i jus wished i cud jus keep the good stuffs and have them forever...blearghs! life life life is unfair! wahaks and sumtimes, u jus wished that u can hav tat 1 special person to be wit u all the while, but then its jus simply impossible. amazingly, u jus need that 1 special person, and of cuz ur family and not a million of other pple to live the way u want to live happily... ahaks 1 is a special number i guess! 12 is too! wahawhawh but then i tink its good to hav lotsa friends too! ahaks contradicting, ok maybe acquaintances...ahahha cuz seriously how true can friends be sumtimes...? ahahah anw anw anw, im jus using this blog to rant, so yea... anws theres like no end when talking abt life, but it jus gets me intrigued everytime i talk abt it wit sum1 i wanna talk wit lah...ahhaha wishes wishes wishes! weets

anw heres another song thats pretty nice to listen to! go check it out!

Dashboard Confessional - Stolen
We watch the season pull up it's own stage
And catch the last weekend of the last week
Before the gold and the glimmer have been replaced
Another sun soaked season fades away

You have stolen my heart
You have stolen my heart

Invitation only grand farewells
Crash the best one of the best ones
Clear liquor and cloudy eyed
Too early to say goodnight

You have stolen my heart
You have stolen my heart

And from the ballroom floor
We are in celebration
One good stretch before our hibernation
Our dreams assured and we all
Will sleep well
Sleep Well

Sleep Well
Sleep Well
Sleep Well

you have stolen my
you have stolen my
you have stolen my... heart

And watch you spin around
In your highest heels
You are the best one
Of the best ones
And we all look like we...
Feel

you have stolen my
you have stolen my
you have stolen my heart

well well well...back to reality... the real world's waiting for me! and u too!! =)

Sing to me... like old days =)

2006-10-04T22:39:00.000+08:00

Break fast drinking choc milkshake! wooohoo!! like aft so long! whawhhawhwa but sux cuz actually planned to be home to break fast wit my mum, but didnt make it, and the next time i wud be able to break fast at home again is only next wk! feel bad! dengs!
feeling a lil giddy! i tink im dehydrated! need more h2o!!! still feeling all the same like ytd tho! ahaks wth!!! nvm nvm, need more rest, and after fasting month is over can munch ard again! woohoo! go go go! anw i do fast in case u all need to know! ahaks n shop shop shop! i wanna spend! daym!
anw..i wanna be different! its by choice! tts y! n dun take stuffs and pple ard you for granted...sux! u mite jus lose them and never have them back! sux! im learning. i dun like losing stuffs... blearghs! dengs...

West Grand Boulevard - Flights of fancy
sit with me, come and play
I need you so near
Stay a while, for a day
Maybe two, have no fear

What i am is not all good
It's not all bad, it's okay
Time has come, wish we could
Get it back, it's too late

And i
Miss you the most
And i
Miss you the most

Sing to me once again
In your room like old days
Speak to me, it depends
On how you do in all ways

Bring me back little smiles
Funny ways you speak to me
Bring me back all your wiles
Whimsical fantasies

Funny ways you speak to me

2006-10-03T23:20:00.000+08:00

i'm tired. i feel damn lethargic. i feel dead. i feel bored. i feel a lil sick, maybe a fever or a flu on the way. my eyes is in pain cuz it feels damn warm. my mouth too, my throat feels sore, and lips are dry. and my whole body is aching! i feel so much more. woohoo but i noe i wanna feel happY! =) weeee wateva it is! i tink im crazy! sux! rox! aniwan got west grand boulevard songs! pls send me, esp flights of fancy! ty. wahaks, i dun even noe who comes to this blog animore! wahawhawhawh

Lying in my bed I hear the clock tick,
And think of you
Caught up in circles confusion
Is nothing new
You say go slow
I fall behind
The second hand unwinds

If you’re lost you can look and you will find me
Time after time
If you fall I will catch you I’ll be waiting
Time after time
Time after time
Time after time

Sometimes you picture me
I’m walking too far ahead
You’re calling to me, I can’t hear
Just what you’ve said
You say go slow
I fall behind
The second hand unwinds

If you’re lost you can look and you will find me
Time after time
If you fall I will catch you I’ll be waiting
Time after time

After my picture fades and darkness has
Turned to gray
Watching through windows you’re wondering
If I’m ok

And you say go slow
I fall behind
The second hand unwinds

If you’re lost you can look and you will find me
Time after time
If you fall I will catch you I’ll be waiting
Time after time

If you’re lost you can look and you will find me
Time after time
If you fall I will catch you I’ll be waiting (I’ll be waiting)
Time after time
Time after time
Time after time

bring me back little smiles... =)

2006-10-01T01:38:00.000+08:00

Stay home saturday! dengs, felt really weird though staying home for the whole day... blearghs... i need it anw... spent almost my whole day sleeping and slacking in my house and also playing Company of Heroes!! ahahah wth, plus not being able to munch away on tidbits...dengs!! horror! ahaks, gd thing my nephew is not around though! wahawhawhwah

and im alone with nothing to do, my mind will start to wander and wonder abt stuffs and this might not always not good! wahaks
was damn tired from the training and i tink i just sux at soccer and maybe i shud jus be a waterboy! wahaks! and thankfully my sec sch jackos were nice enuf to jus slack off playing cards that night! but it was still fun though hanging out wit em! im jus really grateful they are ard to hang out with! ahaks! i shud find more friends like them whom i can hang ard wit! wahwahawhawh i tink im weird cuz many pple cant click wit me, and tats not good! wahawhwahawh but unfortunately these jackos can, i dunno how they are able to do so! wahawhhawahw now it wud be ard 8 more weeks b4 the 2 dumbies are free from their a level stress before we all can meet up again and make fun of each other! dengs
and then it got me thinking, 3 of us will be gg into ns in abt 2 yrs! then 2 more will be gg in abt 3 yrs time... my god, then it wud be so hard to stay contact! wahawhawh hope we will still be able though! wahawhawhawh sux sux sux! i hate this kinda situation! wawahawhawh dumb life!

anw this got me thinking abt life life life! wth! these thoughts keep coming back and then disappear and then it will reappear again! wahawhawh wth! anw the future looks so scary i tink! stupid! garhs!!! future future future! noe wat? i always dreamt of being a pilot! till now but it wud be hard cuz ive got a history of asthma! so dumb! wth! anw anw anw i tink i need to go jump down clear my mind cuz i dun like to think so much! im a pathetic low life jacko that dun like to use my brain, simply put im a lazyass! blearghs! actually many things been running on my mind that i dunno how to start and write it here! ahaks, i do it better when speaking lah i guess, where my mouth keeps reloading itself everytime! wahaks wth!
and this is not emo, its jus me trying to figure out stuffs! wahawhwahwah

"Sometimes when they are gone, they are really gone..." this is really sad though! ahaks... im the kinda person that dun like to lose stuffs but unfortunately i always lose them...ahahah great! come to my house and u'll see all the stupid stuffs that i keep that u tink shud hav disposed! ahaks... and it dates back till i cant rmb when...wahawhha and to add on to the sadness it does not apply only to material stuffs! wahaks... sad lah! but tats the fact of life and i dunno if it can be avoided or not.... blearghs, i tink its harder to lose material stuffs, cuz it only invovles u whereas if its the 'human' stuffs, it involves 2 different beings and sumtimes u jus cant read the other mind and tada! u lose it! actually im really afraid of losing stuffs! sux! wahaks...wth its evil! this world that is!

i'll write more when i feel like it lah. anw say goodbye by chris brown is hot! actually theres lot of other songs im repeating now! wth!
anw ps:i tink im ranting nonsense lah, ignore this unless ur bored and wanna noe the nonsensical me! =)

do wishes come true...? =)

2006-09-30T01:56:00.000+08:00

tired tired tired...blearghs!

ahaks played soccer today for abt 2hrs? during fasting! ahaks! dengs!!! wth, then had dinner at clementi and the nice moustachy senthil drove me n keval all the way to pasir ris mrt stn!!! is tat cool or wat! or else i'll have to rot my butt from clementi to tamp for 45mins? wth...

so met up wit the sec sch jackos... to slack and pay them a large sum of money for the presents! wth! so aft this, most prob the next chill out session wud be 8 wks later! cuz my dumb wife and batam will need to study for their a levels! and seriously they do! whahawhawhwa go go go! so i met ong first b4 joining them up late at pizza hut, as usual im always the last to join up and the first thing they ask from me is money! magnificent! great friends ive got! so sat there for 10 mins b4 moving off to british council to slack! and seriously we look like sum mats or minahs killing off time!!! wth but it was pretty nice cuz i was seriously darn tired! hahahhahah

so the saa ltc was pretty cool! made lotsa friends! had a great tribe, with jeff farhan jr and saufi in it as well! and seriously all my tribesmate were damn cool and we were like the only grp that stick together all the time! ahaks and altho every1 is a winner, we were the ones who won the competition! ahaks personally the cruise was really boring and thank gdness it was only for a night, and the accomodation sux! good thing redang had a great accomodation and way much better than cruise! i tink! but food at both places sux big time! wth... and final word! DORAEPUS ROX! we shud meet up to enjoy our prize!!! wahawhawhawh

and ytd was jeff's bdae! wahawhawhwah and shibby came to surprise him! and that's real cool! too bad theres extra company! wahawhawhawh but its all good!and jeff was really shocked and happy abt it! so tats real good!

and i guess a few problems solved! tats good! lesser problems make life a lil less easier! but too bad u can never have no problems in ur life at all! and i tink life wud be super boring if its tat way! ahahahah
a lil confused but then i like the way things are gg, but i jus keep on hoping for more! ahahah dengs...wth... qns qns qns so many qns but so hard to ask sumtimes! wth and sumtimes ur so scared to ask jus becuz ur scared of the answer!!! ahahah human beings!
pple are always scared of things that they dunno... like for eg. future!,etc. but wth!!! sux sux sux this kinda feeling sux! ahahahah i wanna noe but then im scared of wats the answer!! wahawhwahwah shoot the burger!

nvm nvm nvm...i guess answers do reveal themselves at the end of the day.
and batam told me this while on the bus!
'sumtimes stuffs jus are gone... really gone...' ahaha tat got me wondering... and i hope its not always true! wahawhawhawh life life life!!! i wan answers answers answers! dengs

wishes i have... =)

2006-09-29T01:38:00.000+08:00

Weilos...long time since i wrote... ahahah been bz i guess? ahahhah but still so much time to slack! wth...anws today jeff's bdae! woots woots! glad that shibby came to make a surprise appearance! wahaks its cool! be back to update aites!!

Life...

2006-09-04T00:47:00.000+08:00

EXAMS OVER! a bit overdue but heck it...ahahha

jus finished LTC, pretty cool, tot it wud be tekaning but then not at all, but the bad thing is that APEX was cancelled due to the weather...f up...ahhaha

anw...LTC, learnt lotsa stuffs, tats y i like camps, cuz theres always new stuffs to learn... but i tink the most impt stuff learnt in the camp was at the end of it... =)

basically, i was pretty much impressed the year 3s were able to get tgt, despite their so many differences, and pull it off magnificently. In fact, i doubt they can work well tgt before the camp...so basically the learning point there, was that, no matter the differences, pple can work it out, or at least put it aside, to create magnificent stuffs...so us juniors shud take that in consideration...especially at this moment...ahahah... so kudos to the year 3s... but still of cuz more is expected from the camp personally for me...but well its pretty cool the way it is ord... i guess... basically nothing is perfect, theres always sumthing better tat is expected of...well human...wahawhahw

other than that...not having a real proper rest yet...since exams...so basically i ma switch myself off on one of these days...blearghs! dengs i dunno wat else to say...need sum soul searching at the moment...to get my life into track aft a hectic period during the exams! dengs...

but im orite, not crazy...yet i tink! muahahah

2006-08-21T11:13:00.000+08:00

...i'm still alive... =) dengs

always bz? dun let bzness be an excuse... =)
i noe i do sumtimes... ahaks... dengs

miss
hais . . . . . . weeeee
But now I'm high running wild among all the stars above

2006-07-24T00:42:00.000+08:00

Garrrhhhh!!! im a pirate! i wanna go chop sum1 now!!! grrrrr... blearghs...im crazy... dengs

2006-07-23T23:01:00.000+08:00

Greetings from the planet Mars,
been busy here...so tat explains y i have not written a post for so long...

Aniwaes... everything is ok i guess.. starting to pick up my books and study for my exams which is like jus 2 wks away, and i m only starting to revise now which is not good cuz its like only 2 wks away only, which means 14 days away only...

Today, went to town with farhan to do window shopping and i got myself a pair of burms and polo t wit a hippo on it! from bugis... and i jus cant wait to get myself the new man utd jersey, the long sleeve wan i hope...and theres this quiksilver burms tat is super nice but it cost 90++ so i dun tink i will get it anytime soon. and also theres this adidas sneakers then i find nice and also the cheapest there is tat i can spot which cost 90++ too...dengs...sux! money money money $$$...

Let pple talk... cuz u jus need urself and sum other stuffs for u to live a happy life... u dun need so much to lead a great life... i m trying to be content with wat i got( altho i do talk alot abt money, which makes it look like it makes my world go round..) but yea, life is jus tat way... so many questions i have tats left unanswered, and my heart is jus twitching hoping that there's an answer to it... dengs, it sux most of the times, but then it jus makes life nice sumtimes...sumtimes its jus so funny that we get so busy wit work and forget abt fun...but then we cant jus live w/o any fun at all...
Things come and they go. i jus wan sum to permanently stay, which applioes to sum of the pple ard me... i hope they can js stay there and not be gone one day...dengs
well well well...if u wanna talk abt life, theres like never an ending for every topic thats related to it...dengs.. i jus wanna lead a happy life, maybe wit as little regrets and sadness...cz i jus wanna smile all the way and stay happy always... i dun wanna die sad...cuz tats jus not me... im jus rambling...dengs

Baby you're all that i want
When you're lying here in my arms
Im finding it hard to believe
we're in heaven

more than that
hold me =) smile always

2006-07-09T11:00:00.000+08:00

woots woots woots!!!

i seriously dunno wat to post!!! ahaks... seriously...dengs

gimme sum suggestions on wat to write abt!!! ahahha!!!1

anw i'll end my post here! wahaks...

walk wit me? wun ya? =)

2006-06-25T17:34:00.000+08:00

Since Soniao invited me to do this! i will! basically jus to sidetrack a lil and jus do sumthing.....blearghs! dengs

7 random facts about me
1# I sing badly, but still when im crazy, i'll sing.
2# I like to play, im very playful
3# I dun talk unless pple wan me to, but i'll tok nonstop once u wan it
4# I do have a temper... jus dun push too hard =)
5# I m seriously a good boy!
6# I like to talk alot seriously
7# I do hav secrets too...yea yea! wahaks

7 things that scare me
1# losing anithing
2# future
3# drowning
4# not being me
5# i dunno?
6# life
7# anithing

7 random music at the moment
1# Amber pacific - cant hold back
2# Angels and Airwaves - A Little's Enough
3# The fray - how to save a life
4# Dashboard confessional - hands down
5# Blink 182 - going away to college
6# Jeff Cowen - K I S S I N G
7# KCi & JoJo - All my life =)

7 things I say the most
1# dengs
2# ahaks
3# serious
4# wahwahawhwha
5# wahaks
6# blearghs
7# i'm tired lah

7 people to do this
1# ani1 lah...
2#
3#
4#
5#
6#
7#

i'll update soon lah i guess...dengs wahaks... i dunno wat to update! u ask me then i'll tell u wud be easier! wahaks!...dengs

2006-06-13T22:42:00.000+08:00

Check this quote out... got it from High School Musical. I tink its very true...

Do you remember in kindergarten,how you'd meet a kid, and know nothing about them, then 10 seconds later you'd be playing like you were best friends, because you didn't have to be anyone but yourself?

So yeaps, nowadays, pple can be so fake tats y things dun last? ahaks... basically, i tink jus be urself and dun care abt wat others think, well maybe not really till u dun listen to sum constructive comments made by them... jus enjoy being urself, at least u noe they like you for you... =)

2006-06-10T01:34:00.000+08:00

update!

i dunno wat to update nowadays!!! muahahah...dengs

Pple change, maybe ive changed too... and sum for the better, well tats good, and sum for the worse?, well tats bad! to me! ahaks! No particular person im refering to but a lot? ahaks! oh well life's like tat!
But still im smiling =)...i guess! wahaks!
i'm sick of hating, but i m still hating! aahahhaha...dengs...woots!

well tats the end..i'll update when i've got stuffs to update! ahaks...dengs

2006-05-28T22:43:00.000+08:00

ive got a few more new songs im addicted to!! wahaks

Cute is what we aim for - Fingers twisted and split
Eye liner and a famous designer brand
Your mind is a moment to be stamped
Express tried and true
Just look, look at you
So pretty and perfect
Due to your steady hand
I know where that make up will land
Apply that lipgloss like its your job
You know you’re his heart throb

You wanna know what you got
I got a plan we cant get caught
And theres no chance in hell we’ll stop
No, no, no, I think not

Pinching with a moment so tight
Undone and lookin just right
No not tonight
A smeared kiss
A moment missed
Are you upset with this?

You wanna know what you got
I got a plan we cant get caught
And theres no chance in hell we’ll stop
No, no, no, I think not

Body language is something that you feel
It’s just too real to be concealed
Body language is something that you learn
And you just can’t get taught
We’ll never get caught

You wanna know what you got
I got a plan we cant get caught
And there’s no chance in hell we’ll stop
No, no, no, I think not

The Kooks - Naive
I'm not saying it was your fault
Although you could have done more

Oh you're so naive yet so

How could this be done
Your such a smiling sweetheart
Oh and your sweet and pretty face
Such an ugly thing
For someone so beautiful
That everytime I look inside

I know that she knows that I'm not fond of asking
True or false it may be
She's still out to get me

I know that she knows that I'm not fond of asking
True or false it may be
She's still out to get me

I may say it was your fault
Cause I know you could have done more

Oh you're so naive yet so

How could this be done
By such a smiling sweetheart
Oh and your sweet and pretty face
In such an ugly way something so beautiful
Everytime I look inside

I know that she knows that I'm not fond of asking
True or false it may be
She's still out to get me

I know that she knows that I'm not fond of asking
True or false it may be
She's still out to get me

How could this be done
By such a smiling sweetheart

Oh you're so naive yet so

Such an ugly thing
Someone so beautiful
And everytime you're on his side

I know she knows that I'm not fond of asking
True or false it maybe be she's still out to get me

And I know she knows that I'm not fond of asking
True or false it maybe be she's still out to get me

Just don't let me down
Just don't let me down
Hold on to your kite
Just don't let me down
Just don't let me down
Hold on to your kite
Just don't let me down
Just don't let me down
Hold on to this kite
Just don't let me down

Blink 182 - Going away to college
Please take me by the hand
It's so cold out tonight, I'll
Put blankets on the bed
I won't turn out the light, just
Don't forget to
Think about me, and I
Won't forget you
"I'll write you once a week," she said

Why does it feel the same
To fall in love or break it off?
And if young love is just a game, then
I must have missed the kick-off
Don't depend on me to
Ever follow through on
Anything but
I'd go through Hell for you and

I haven't been this scared
In a long time
And I'm so unprepared
So here's your valentine
Bouquet of clumsy words
A simple melody
This world's an ugly place
But you're so beautiful to me

I'll think about the times
She kissed me after class and
She put up with my friends
I acted like an ass, I
Ditched my lecture
To watch the girls play soccer
Is my picture
Still hanging in her locker?

I haven't been this scared
In a long time
And I'm so unprepared
So here's your valentine
Bouquet of clumsy words
A simple melody
This world's an ugly place
But you're so beautiful...

I haven't been this scared
In a long time
And I'm so unprepared
So here's your valentine
Bouquet of clumsy words
A simple melody
This world's an ugly place
But you're so beautiful...

yeaps..these are the few fav songs i've been listening to! the ones in italic are phrases i like! woots...! =)

2006-05-14T20:36:00.000+08:00

I jus feel that i shud post the lyrics to the song that i'm addicted to rite now! wahaks! its a real sing alg kinda song! so yeah! sing the lyrics when u hear the song!esp the last part! =)

Dashboard Confession - Hands Down
Breathe in for luck
Breathe in so deep
This air is blessed
You share with me
This night is wild
So calm and dull
These hearts they race
From self-control
Your legs are smooth
As they graze mine
We're doing fine
We're doing nothing at all

My hopes are so high that your kiss might kill me
So won't you kill me
So I die happy
My heart is yours to fill or burst
To break or bury
Or wear as jewelry
Whichever you prefer

The words are hushed
Let's not get busted
Just lay entwined here
Undiscovered
Safe in here from all those stupid questions
"Hey did you get some?"
Man, that is so dumb
Stay quiet
Stay near
Stay close, they can't hear
So we can get some

My hopes are so high that your kiss might kill me
So won't you kill me
So I die happy
My heart is yours to fill or burst
To break or bury
Or wear as jewelry
Whichever you prefer

Hands down this is the best day I can ever remember
I'll always remember the sound of the stereo
The dim of the soft lights
The scent of your hair
That you twirled in your fingers
And the time on the clock
When we realized it's so late
And this walk that we shared together
And the streets were wet
And the gate was locked
So I jumped it
And I let you in
And you stood at your door
With your hands on my waist
And you kissed me like you meant it
And I knew,
That you meant it
That you meant it
That you meant it
And I knew,
That you meant it
That you meant it...

2006-05-14T20:13:00.000+08:00

Mothers' Day today! ahaks
Wished her early in the morning and gave her a hug only! dengs... guess i'll get her the crocs on her bdae instead, since its jus ard the corner! wahwahawh.. 2-in-1 present lah! blearghs... damn broke rite now!
Actually i dun really know what to blog abt cuz there's so many things happening that i dun really know to where to start...wahaks! Dengs! There's the happy things and also the not so happy things! wahaks! and i guess that's life? ahaks!
Oh yeah... watched Poseidon and i tink it sux, except for the special FX but the new theatre at The Cathay is kinda cool! but man $9.50/tix now for a movie is really creates a big hole in my pocket. Did watch MI:3 too and quite a cool movie, nice story and nice stunts!
Erms...wat else is there to blog...ahahahah...
Yeah! My social comm! I tink it kinda rox! all six of them including Keat Moo! ahaks! So far no problems faced yet and im glad! but hell they seems like the fun kinda bunch! and im looking forward to working wit em! hope they can learn lotsa stuffs and enjoy their stay in union! =)
And jus a minute ago got a call from sum idiot from sum stupid enterprising company that wants me to go for an interview and its quite stupid cuz i dun rmb feeling up any forms to join any company...blearghs! Privacy is really hard to find nowadays! dengs.
And yeah theres this new song, maybe not lah, im like having it on repeat mode since wat... 3 days ago? ahaks. Hands Down by Dashboard Confessional! listen to the acoustic version, i tink its nicer and soothier to listen too! ahaks
Long time since i hanged out wit my sec sch friends oso! dengs! can't forget them cuz they are the cliques that i hanged out wit since sec sch days, even aft o levels till last few weeks when union like took control of my life, and also the other union pples'! ahaks! blearghs! but thinking back, i kinda miss it! ahaks! Human beings...tsktsktsk!
Man this entry is damn long and so dengs!...wahaks! the first time its like this...wahawhawhaw
wat else can i talk abt??? ahahha
oh yeah...my phone now dropped for the 4th time oready and man i feel like toot toot when it dropped. ahaks! and i jus got a silicon casing for it! aft looking for a casing since it dropped the first time! dengs! ahaks!
Had soccer on saturday and drew 3-3 with the juniors and zai scored an own goal wearing my jersey! ahaks! i seriously shudn't have lent it to him man! wahaks! Then it was the GL outing aft tat and watched Poseidon, which i talked abt it ord, then slacked ard! And jeff was damn funny as usual, and din was the fker and usual, and i was also the fker as usual! wahaks...its fun to have them ard lah! wahaks
And yah, we've been very close, but at the same time i felt drifted away from sum other pple and its quite sad! wahaks... man i noe this is an excuse but its jus so hard to find time for them! dengs! ahahah
I tink tis is long enuf for an entry aft quite a long absence...so i guess i'll jus stop here laHs! wahaks...

So i die happy =)

2006-05-01T20:23:00.000+08:00

heys!!!
man been a really long time since i last blogged...and i dun even noe if pple do still visit my blog...hahahaha... and i dun even rmb when i last blogged..ahaks

man, was damn damn damn bz wit everything since the day i last blogged, and seriously i cant remember vividly wat went on...ahahha so i cant really blogged abt wat happen since then...ahahha

There's union stuffs, my sec sch class chalet, which kinda rocks!!! so yah...tats the really major things that happened that i remembered...haha

And yah.. wud like to say really sorry to my close frens from sec sch class...ahaks, missed out on so many outings wit them.. but dun worry i did miss u guys! and yah i will try not to miss anymore since im a lil less bz for now at least...hahah

And union been sucking up most of my holidays..but its all good...ahaks. so many happened.. wun tok much abt it cuz it wud pretty much take up like my whole night! ahaks...

yeaps...so tats all for the first post aft like 2 months i tink...ahaks. i'll try to update more...:D

2006-02-18T18:24:00.000+08:00

http://humanmetrics.com/cgi-win/JTypes3.asp

This is the result i got for taking this test...its damn cool, and personally i tink its quite accurate ey...and the best of all, im like 'found in only about 3 percent of the general population, but they have great influence because of their extraordinary impact on others.' woots...coolness.!!!
u guys shud go and try it out oso....:D

2006-02-14T23:41:00.000+08:00

http://www.donanddrew.com/

Check this web out, then click on RSS at the top right hand corner... and listen to the 13/02/06!!!!
I'm on it with sum of my other SPSU friends. I'm Abu on it! and its at the ending part!!!!! so go hear it!! and their valentines day song is damn nice! ahaks!

And Happy Valentines Day to all! =)

2006-01-31T01:24:00.000+08:00

Ahaks, had my chinese new year holidays since friday, cuz my fridays has no classes. So been hibernating at home, sleeping, playing the comp, watching tv, etc.
Been watching quite a number of movies, Troy. And on HBO, Black Hawk Down, I,Robot, Agent Cody Banks, Chasing Liberty, jus to name a few...ahaks

I kinda like this scene Chasing liberty, when Mandy Moore and Matthew Goode was abt to do a bunjee-jump together from a super high bridge to a river, and the words they said before they jumped are pretty cool... here goes...
Ben Calder: So if you're scared, why do it?
Anna Foster: Because the things you're scared of are usually the most worthwhile.
So yeaps, i tink its quite true huhs... i mean thats when all the adrenaline is pumped up, and i guess its real cool to have lots of challenges in life, at least it wont be boring... food for thought...=) and i really like the answer to that qn... =)

2006-01-22T00:14:00.000+08:00

First post for this year.. about time i guess...dengs! and its gonna be quite a long one...

Had sum cool stuffs this month,
Jus 2 days ago, went to Mediacorp Radio Building to record some trailers for Perfect 10's 'Hollaback Crew' and another recording session for Don & Drew's valentine's day special show! it will most probably be aired on 12 feb, and in it, im Abu... and it was really super cool! and it was really super memorable, and i finally got their shirt!!!woots
Got a new pair of shoes, red Snoop Dogg's Pony Snoopa Doopa shoes! and i really tink its damn nice and im loving it!
My 1st pair of havainas got stolen, and altho i jus got a new pair of Brazillian Praia sandals, im still feeling quite sad abt it. cuz i like to keep all my stuffs and i seldom throw them away... sentimental values, tats wat i call...dengs
As for new year's celebrations, met up wit my sec sch friends to jus slack and watch fireworks at marina bay, but we watched from raffles city to avoid the crowd at esplanade! The fireworks were cool, but the national day's was better! dengs
New year, new stuffs...changes!!! dengs
For now tats all that i really can recall of all the happenings that happen this month...
And had dinner at simpang bedok wit khai, nic and sonia. talked abt sum deep-thinking stuffs... and well its nice talking abt those stuffs...

And january is almost up and sumhow or rather, i still feel like its only 2005. I guess im a slowpoke... evertyhing is moving super fast, and i dun tink im having an easy time catching up with things.. i now want the old stuffs back, maybe not all...dengs!
Funny that when we had certain things, we'll want sumthing else. But when it's no longer there, u'll want it back so badly. Maybe not all feel that way, but im one. Year 1 in poly is almost up and although im doing quite fine in my studies, i still think i miss out on alot of stuffs...dengs! To those pple waiting for 'O' level results, i've never regretted joining poly!
Man i really miss those stuffs...dengs! =)

Well, another thing that crossed my mind... is life really about having all those posh stuffs. Personally, to a certain extent, i guess it is. But then when i tot abt sum of the things tat i wanted to be when i was younger, though silly it is, how i wish that i could still think that way and live my life happily as a kid... =)

And ask urself this, 'What's your deepest fear?'
That got me thinking as well...=)

2005-12-31T12:32:00.000+08:00

Been really busy for this past few weeks, but then i dunno wat to blog..ahaks...dengs

But oh well... 2006, Here i come!!! weets

nice...

2005-12-13T00:35:00.000+08:00

Woots!! 17 finally! my bdae jus passed like 30 mins ago =)

Went to KL for my uncle's wedding ceremony from 10-11 dec...reached home only at 1++ am on 12 dec due to Tuas Checkpoint jam! ahaks..but its cool celebrating ur bdae in between Singapore n M'sia...:D!!! it was quite a meaningful trip for me...tho i dun get to shop much!!! grrrr!!!

Today, union peeps celebrated my bdae and im really grateful to all! :D Had my pubic hair covered wit glue and they drew on my hands and dress me up horribly! but it was cool! Thx to them, not forgetting those from other clubs oso :D!
Then met up wit my sec sch frens to jus slack off and eat before my bdae ends...so it was a cool bdae after all... :D

THX TO ALL THAT MADE ME HAPPY TODAY :D!!!

open your eyes and observe, not jus see... then hopefully you will know...

2005-11-23T23:05:00.000+08:00

woots! been super damn busy this few weeks, especially this week! and it will go on till maybe january? or maybe even further...dengs! Having a camp this weekend and i hope i can finally rest well and wake up late this sunday...pls!

Ahaks... ytd was damn cool! Planned a surprise celebration for farhan! altho it didnt really turned out as a big surprise(due to sum 'smart' pple), was real glad that he never stopped smiling aft tat! Yay! ahaks! Sonia did a lot of great work on it and its super cool that many turned up to celebrate along! Ahaks...we even forged a great relationship wit the LJS peeps! ahahah...and one of the crews even has the same sweet beautiful name as me! woots! dengs!

So got alot to catch up on my studies and being the food i/c for 2 union events, it wud be quite a hectic period for me! dun really feel bad abt it...i tink...ahaks but MMSP 05/06 drawing to a close by end of this month, so one less workload! jus a few weeks away, and i dunno wat it will feel like on the finals itself...jus hope everything runs smoothly! and so do other stuffs...

so many things to say but i dunno how to...dengs

2005-11-13T07:42:00.000+08:00

Man!! my weekend is damn damn packed! and even some important stuffs i cant fit in! shiet! dengs
Ytd, had soccer in the morning but then we lost thru penalties! wasted! Then MMSP dance practice. I'll type abt it later on. Then aft that had to rush to farhan's house b4 meeting my family to go visiting.
Today will be gg to the zoo then visiting and i m trying my best to make it for my friend's bdae! dengs

Yeah, so the MMSP dance practice! It was really really the most memorable time i had wit the MMSP contestants so far! Lately, i've been quite disappointed wit them cuz of stuffs, and oso, i was feeling like i failed wat i was supposed to do as a coordinator. I was suppose to like get them bonded together and make them have fun and all, but then, there were cliques among them, commitment problems and many more. But then, ytd they were not anithing like that!!! The bonding was really crystal clear ytd as some of them dedicated songs and we listened to some meaningful songs and this time, i will feel really really sad to see any of them leaving after the semis. I jus hope we will still be like this even after the semis, and oso the finals! i really feel proud of them now and i can safely said that i will treasure all the moments i had with them! :D

*** GO MMSP 05/06 - "Pursuit Of Stardom" ***

And here is the song i dedicated to them! I tink this shud be MMSP 05/06's theme song!

Mariah Carey - HeroThere's a hero if you look inside your heart.
You don't have to be afraid of what you are.
There's an answer if you reach into your soul
and the sorrow that you know will melt away.
And then a hero comes along
with the strength to carry on
and you cast your fears aside
and you know you can survive.
So, when you feel like hope is gone
look inside you and be strong
and you'll finally see the truth
that a hero lies in you.
It's a long road when you face the world alone.
No one reaches out a hand for you to hold.
You can find love if you search within yourself
and the emptiness you felt will disappear.
And then a hero comes along
with the strength to carry on
and you cast your fears aside
and you know you can survive.
So, when you feel like hope is gone
look inside you and be strong
and you'll finally see the truth
that a hero lies in you.
Lord knows dreams are hard to follow,
But don't let anyone tear them away.
Hold on, there will be tommorow.
In time you'll find the way.
And then a hero comes along
with the strength to carry on
and you cast your fears aside
and you know you can survive.
So, when you feel like hope is gone
look inside you and be strong
and you'll finally see the truth
that a hero lies in you.
That a hero lies in you,
that a hero lies in you.

2005-11-03T23:50:00.000+08:00

Hari Raya TODAY!! 1 month of fasting over, now i can eat! Had visits to my relatives' houses, but went to only 4 or 5 i tink! ahaks... But still its kinda cool to me! woots.... and can say i spent half of my aftn sleeping, damn tired...dengs
Went to read farhan's blog and damn i like the article!!! Great one you found there farhan!!! Going back to read it again! ahaks...interesting one! and i jus cant get enuf of interesting and amazing stuffs...dengs
Expecting a hectic schedule for the next few weeks i tink! arghs... and my timetable says that almost everyday, my classes ends at 5 wit major long breaks in between classes! arghs
But then, i tink im loving my new hairstyle... many diff comments from pple but still, its my own style, my own identity!

Doesnt matter what they think abt stuffs

2005-10-30T22:33:00.000+08:00

Sch starting tmr! Quite excited abt sch! ahaks... funny? I dunno...ahaks! The funny thing is tat everytime there is a holiday, i will be really busy and get really occupied when it's ending! dengs... Been slacking big time, enjoying whatever there is for this past week! woots...
Aniwae, Hari Raya jus a few days away and i'm still not ready for it! Havent buy stuffs and dun even mention cleaning up my house! My own room is neva cleared up even! ahaks! Every year, the excitement keeps going down...dunno y but still the festive mood in me is always there lah!

I am wat i am, i cant deny tat!!! And i neva try to put up an act jus to impress sum1...
i jus hope...

2005-10-23T10:27:00.000+08:00

"Without the tree, the dog can't pee"
Ahaks, spitted these words out subconciously during MMSP dance practice just now! ahaks! Cause hairul was talking abt the SP muscial and if he'll only become a tree in it... dengs..
Well i guess what the phrase says, its quite true man! Even how small ur role is in something, u will somehow affect the outcome of it... so i guess everyone have a part to play!

And i've been observing some stuffs lately, and well, i think there will be shocks and surprises coming up just around the corner! woots...ahaks good n bad! Dunno if i interpreted it right...but oh well, it gives me the thrills, i think... There's oready a few shocks i had in previous days...dengs

I cant read the heart or the mind, so tell me what you're feeling and thinking abt!

2005-10-09T21:32:00.000+08:00

woots..coming back home jus a few mins ago... i walked a longer route back home and man, there were quite a number of stars i managed to spot and the moon was jus fantabulous!ahaks

tis kinda stuffs jus neva fails to amaze me, jus like sum otha stuffs!

2005-10-09T16:00:00.000+08:00

Today, slacked the whole day at home.. but gg to my aunt's place later to take sum things..

And man the holidays is a real bore man... Even tho my fav pasttime is to slp, im getting tired of slping oready... And talking abt slping, i jus cant slp early these days...haiz.

But then from now onwards, my Weds and Sats will be set aside for MMSP dance practice. And i got the IE camp coming up this week...Other than that, i tink i'll jus rot my butt off at home..

Nothing's really nice on TV tis few days. But then, jus now i watched Armageddon on StarMovies...So much abt coincidence..dengs

ahaha..everything's so confusing man..if only its not..then it wud be better! i guess..dengs

2005-10-02T23:54:00.000+08:00

Man, had a great time jus now for the MMSP outing. Went ice-skating(i noe how to! and can say its fun lahs!), watched 'Four Brothers' and then played pool! Altho not all turned up, i'm still pretty glad to be working wit them. They're not those boring types, but the fun and can say sum are crazy! And i like it! weets...

Been wondering... how do we know if its the right time for us to do some things? Wat if its not and then the repercussions of it will all be against you? But then, it got me further wondering... how do we even know if its the right thing for us to do?

If only i could noe all the answers to these qns, then i wont have to spend time jus thinking abt it! dengs... Cuz i will get so tired mentally everytime i think of it, especially if its sumthing so important. And being the pessimistic person i am sumtimes, i will alwaes end up getting myself stressed out. dengs... well tat at least explains the many times ive been to esplanade for the last 2 weeks i guess... ahaks... weets

And it wud be wonderful if i have the power to noe wat pple are thinking of and wat they really feel at any point of time, including myself, cuz sumtimes i am jus lost and dunno wat i m really thinking of...dengs

So many things to say for so many stuffs, but i dunno how to...? dengs...

2005-09-25T01:07:00.000+08:00

WAWHAWHAHWHWAHAWH!
Me, Farhan Sr, Guna & Senthil was on MTV Get Spotted! jus now at ard 3:45pm!!! But then only now did my fren tell me! Ahaks! darn it!... But still its a cool thing lahs!
And watched The Myth oso and aft tat i saw FYAN!!!! Wit a BOTAK HAIRCUT! woots! He told me i was the first union member to see him like tat! ahaks...cool lahs! But the thing is he looks like a small decent kid sia! ahaks......woots...

2005-09-17T19:11:00.000+08:00

Today's post is not about me wanna complain or anithing like that. Its jus sumthing i feel like writing, so yeaps i wrote it.

Respect has always and will always be a big word in my life...
Respect and fear is 2 totally different things if u asked me. You can be the president or anyone holding a high post and when you ask pple to do things, and they do it, but out of fear, not respect... then your nothing, to me that is. Earning respect is never easy, but instilling fear is so much simpler, so that explains i guess?! If u wanna be a respected leader, r u willing to drop all your egos and go lower than what ur followers would? If u would, trust me that i will be one of your follower that will respect you! If your jus there to command pple to do stuffs but u yourself dun dare do it, trust me if i followed ur instructions, i was doing it out of fear. I'm a scaredy-cat i guess...ahaks

Another would be Trust. Thats even a bigger word i tink. Like one of my fav rappers, Fabolous, rhymed, "i dun trust everyone that i say hi and bye to.."
Not lying but seriously, trust is jus too hard for me to give out, and so do many other pple too i believe. If you call this hypocrisy towards others, i won't have anithing to say about ur opinion. Rite now, theres only a few pple i've put my trust in. And i tink they noe who they are and i hope i have earned their trust too. And once u have the trust of someone, pls dun sell them out and misplace their trust. Cuz u jus wuldnt want pple to treat u that way too. Karma baybeh, karma!

Aniwae, did like jus 5% of wat i intended to do today, that is to study for my DE! and that sux...ahaks. Hope i can pull through that paper! And ytd i played soccer, went to gym, then ran ard SP once then played soccer again, short passes only lahs for the second round! ahaks... so tats y i didnt have another long run today? ahaks... but i dun really feel that burned out by this stuffs? weird...dengz
And its jus so hard to think of the future, especially the consequences, if i were to do this or that! Daym! ahaks... and its really nice to jus sit and talk to someone man! and thx farhan! European Gigolos woots!
i guess that every loss u've gained, there will certainly be a little gain in the end, if not much...dengz!

2005-09-14T22:23:00.000+08:00

Man... this week i dunno y but i really feel so damn tired! total shagness sia... damn man! Really really damn tired...ahaks...
Exams for the next 2 wks, but only for 3 papers...dengz! and i havent really started to revise...maybe a lil lahz...Ahaks
Aniwae, was damn shocked when Fyan called me man jus now! Ahaks... ok for those who wanna noe how he's been doing in NS... i tink he's dreading it lahz! ahaks... he sounded so sian man when he called me! ahaks! and he will be booking out next thurs! so pple wanna join me n him for lunch tell me! ahaks... miss him and his voice man! ahaks...
To me, i tink he's one of the nicest seniors to hang out with lah and i tink he's one of the closest senior i really chill with and trust in lahz... His experiences are really amazing lahz, and he is one of those pple who's there to help his friends no matter wat man! much respect for him!

I consider all as my friends, but only a few i put my trust in...
Thank you, and Sorry...

2005-09-10T12:53:00.000+08:00

Found this interesting, so i decided to do it...dengz ahaks, aniwae feeling a lil bored so yeaps....

Your dating personality profile:

Big-Hearted - You are a kind and caring person. Your warmth is inviting, and your heart is a wellspring of love.
Liberal - Politics matters to you, and you aren't afraid to share your left-leaning views. You would never be caught voting for a conservative candidate.
Adventurous - Just sitting around the house is not something that appeals to you. You love to be out trying new things and really experiencing life.

Your date match profile:

Practical - You are drawn to people who are sensible and smart. Flashy, materialistic people turn you off. You appreciate the simpler side of living.
Conservative - Forget liberals, you need a conservative match. Political discussions interest you, and a conservative will offer the viewpoint you need.
Traditional - You aren't looking for someone who is sexually repressed. You want someone who is adventurous under the covers.

Your Top Ten Traits

1. Big-Hearted
2. Liberal
3. Adventurous
4. Funny
5. Romantic
6. Athletic
7. Religious
8. Wealthy/Ambitious
9. Sensual
10. Traditional

Your Top Ten Match Traits

1. Practical
2. Conservative
3. Traditional
4. Funny
5. Big-Hearted
6. Sensual
7. Adventurous
8. Athletic
9. Religious
10. Romantic

2005-09-04T02:56:00.000+08:00

weeeee... i've found a new hobby tat is to go for a long run! And it sumhows make me forget abt everything that's going on ard me and it does other great stuffs too! ahaks
Today had another long run, and this time i believe i ran at least 6.5km non-stop! weeeee, and it felt great i tink! ahaks...! after that went to study with the other Bedok peeps and then went to watch soccer at the coffeshop nearby! And man the game was quite boring! England won 1-0 but then the goal scored by Joe Cole was due to a deflection! I got a few errands to settle and i dun feel like doing it! Plus sem exams jus ard the corner, but im still lost abt sum of the stuffs that i just learned in this term! ahaks... i noe i can do it and i will TRY my best to do it lahz! ahaks

And who's that mystery one...? still wondering...ermz... ahaks

2005-08-28T19:21:00.000+08:00

My leg muscles are taut from the run ytd, but then myy craziness got over me again today, and thus i went to East Coast Park for a long,long walk; it was also to check about the MMSP bbq pit booking, to study and jus slack ah...ahaks! I walked quite a distance till i had blisters in between my toes for both my feet, and despite tat i continued walking but i stopped when i was halfway reaching my house... ahaks, and i regret wearing sandals... But then, the sea breeze was just great lah, and tat totally neutralise all the other negativities... And when i slacked at Bedok Jetty for some time, it was damn great and i felt everything being calm and tat was really fantastic...

Well yeah, basically tats wat happened today lah, other than trying out my brother's new bike and gg to a wedding wit my family... Overall, it was not a bad day man

2005-08-27T20:08:00.000+08:00

I suddenly felt like running and so i went for a really, really loooooong run jus now... ahaks! Despite my sore throat, which isnt getting any better. At least my fever is residing oready! Crazy stuffs i do...dengz...but then it felt great lahz!
So basically today had the run and other than that jus slacked at home after so many weekends out doing different stuffs... Ytd supposed to go for SMA day but then cant make it cuz exco meeting ended really late, and im sure i missed sum cool stuffs, so yeah im real sorry to all of them, especially Ratna...so sorry..! But then me n Fyan did laff away real good singing old malay songs at the rock climbing area while waiting for my boss and the other senior excos. Aniwae Fyan is gonna go Tekong in like less than 2 wks.. thus explaing his Pre-Tekong Syndrome(PTS)! Gonna miss him and his voice man!
My studies getting harder, unfortunately. so hopefully i can pull sum cool grades for the coming exams. Other than that...usual stuffs happening(maybe sum getting worse and little getting better?) and thus, it explains y theres nothing to blog about...dengz! And i tink my crazy side will be back real soon? ahaks

and do u agree that u can be in love more than once but then u fall in love only once?

2005-08-16T23:16:00.000+08:00

Of all the changes you've embraced, this one is the most shocking. Could your daring, game-for-anything self actually be feeling quiet and conservative? Say it ain't so! Actually, you're quite enjoying your newly restrained and low-key persona. It's a nice change of pace and gives you some much-needed moments for contemplation. Go ahead and roll with this feeling and enjoy the insight it provides.

ahahah...friendster horoscope...like quite true man... me enjoying it? well sort of lah...but i dunno if its a permanent change lah....which i dun tink so... ahaks

2005-08-13T19:29:00.000+08:00

Waiting for the man utd vs everton match starting in abt 15mins time. Had banner painting for MMSP jus now. So far all my tests' results have been great except for DE, and i expect this term's studies to be much harder... dunno wat else to blog about lah...
You can only judge sum1's strength if u were to put him into hot water and i totally agree to that. They may looks strong but looks can be deceiving wat...

And rite now, I'm a lil lost wit almost everything... and i dun like it

2005-08-07T13:40:00.000+08:00

CYA camp was just over, and overall, it was ok, except for the fact that some of their campers tried to be pranksters and sumhow spoilt the fun of the nite activities. But its ok lah...
Then during my camp, my mum called me and told me my cousin jus passed away, and yah, it was kinda sad, cuz she's still so young and she got 2 young sons. And i really feel for her 2 sons cuz the elder one is like only pri 1.
Well, i guess life's jus too short, and even though its great to have fun and go wild, i still think we should not forget about the world and get in touch with realities of this world too.

Besides that, i'm getting more n more sick and tired of it. I dun tink many noe the reasons why and i dun really care if they were to jump to stupid conclusions. Jus human behaviour.
Never trust anybody. Except for a little maybe...

2005-08-01T23:36:00.000+08:00

I'm not impressed...

2005-07-31T21:24:00.000+08:00

When you were 1 year old, shefed youandbathed you. You thanked her by crying allnightlong.When you were 2 years old, she taughtyou towalk. You thanked her by running awaywhenshe called.When you were 3 years old, she made allyourmeals with love. You thanked her bytossing yourplate on the floor.When you were 4 years old, she gave yousomecrayons. You thanked her by coloring thediningroom table.When you were 5 years old, she dressedyou forthe holidays. You thanked her byplopping into thenearest pile of mud.When you were 6 years old, she walkedyou toschool. You thanked her byscreaming, "I'M NOTGOING!"When you were 7 years old, she boughtyou abaseball. You thanked her by throwing itthroughthe next-door-neighbor's window.When you were 8 years old, she handedyou anice cream. You thanked her by dripping itall overyour lap.When you were 9 years old, she paid forpianolessons. You thanked her by never evenbotheringto practice.When you were 10 years old she droveyou allday, from soccer to gymnastic to onebirthdayparty after another. You thanked her byjumpingout of the car and never looking back.When you were 11 years old, she took youandyour friends to the movies. You thankedher byasking to sit in a different row.When you were 12 years old, she warnedyou notto watch certain TV shows. You thankedher bywaiting until she left the house.When you were 13, she suggested ahaircut thatwas becoming. You thanked her by tellingher shehad no taste.When you were 14, she paid for a monthaway atsummer camp. You thanked her byforgetting towrite a single letter.When you were 15, she came home fromwork,looking for a hug. You thanked her byhaving yourbedroom door locked.When you were 16, she taught you how todriveher car. You thanked her by taking it everychanceyou could.When you were 17, she was expecting animportant call. You thanked her by beingon thephone all night.When you were 18, she cried at your highschoolgraduation. You thanked her by stayingoutpartying until dawn.When you were 19, she paid for yourcollegetuition, drove you to campus carried yourbags.You thanked her by saying good-byeoutside thedorm so you wouldn't be embarrassed infront ofyour friends.When you were 20, she asked whetheryou wereseeing anyone. You thanked her bysaying, "It'snone of your business."When you were 21, she suggested certaincareers for your future. You thanked her bysaying, "I don't want to be like you."When you were 22, she hugged you atyourcollege graduation. You thanked her byaskingwhether she could pay for a trip to Europe.When you were 23, she gave you furnitureforyour first apartment. You thanked her bytellingyour friends it was ugly.When you were 24, she met your fianceandasked about your plans for the future. Youthanked her by glaring andgrowling, "Muuhh-ther,please!"When you were 25, she helped to pay foryourwedding, and she cried and told you howdeeplyshe loved you. You thanked her by movinghalfway across the country.When you were 30, she called with someadviceon the baby. You thanked her by tellingher, "Things are different now."When you were 40, she called to remindyou of arelative's birthday. You thanked her bysaying youwere "really busy right now."When you were 50, she fell ill andneeded you totake care of her. You thanked her byreadingabout the burden parents become to theirchildren.And then one day, she quietly died. Andeverything you never did came crashingdown likethunder on YOUR HEART.If you love your mom, repost this bulletin.Don't take advantage of her...

Found this on friendster... jus felt like putting it up here cuz i tink every1 can relate to it one way or another....

2005-07-29T21:59:00.000+08:00

1 wk pass for AGM... slowly everything gg back to normal...thankfully...
Got another of Fyan's song a few days back and i love the guitar intro, the sound quality was better tis time round, and the song is pretty much like aaron carter's im all about you, and its the only fav song from him that i liked... so Fyan's song is nice too lah... haha
This week is my sch holiday, but been gg back to sch everyday for sum meetings, to study a little bit and just to slack... Next week will be my MST week but then im not really confident abt it, especially DE, which i havent even started to study... jus dun feel like it... haiz...
Newae Farhan Nazgul jus now showed me sum dance shows saved in his mp3 which was like damn funny... i laughed and i cud jus feel my blardy stomach abt to burst, cuz it was damn funny and stupid...hahaha
I'm really tired rite now... and tomoro will be gg back to sch agn for a meeting abt the Youth 4 Causes... dunno y i get myself into this kinda stuffs... ahahha, i jus like it i guess...ermz

2005-07-27T11:11:00.000+08:00

Life sumhow hav returned back to normal aft AGM sumhow...now left to study for my MST. Got more union projects! im involved in, MMSP, and i hav to plan a BBQ or chalet in October, n im not tat good in this kinda stuffs..ahahha, but i tink i shud be able to make it...Also decided to help out CYA for their freshmen camp and volunteered to help Youth For Cause...dunno y i decided to help but i tink i jus like tis kinda stuffs... ahaks
Ydae had a family outing, Advonts,Avars & Ottomans! came late due to a meeting abt Youth For Cause! We will be meeting the sec sch students this sat at 10!and tats blardy early! for the family outing, i went to sentosa wit farhan, zai, fyan & ghalid, slack there, then go to Harbourfront to hav our dinner, and i freaking feel cheated cuz a small scoop of rice with 4 crabsticks, small scoop of chilli hotdog and an egg cost 5BUCKS! i was like complaining to every1 from when i bought it all the way till we went out of that shopping mall!then went home wit zai and reached home at 9...damn shagged oready..
Aniwae, on the way to Sentosa, shared my agm experience wit them. Had a good talk lah basically. Sumhow i tink wat they said is true and wat to expect in future, i believe it will be true also lah...so i guess i sumhow noe wat to expect...

2005-07-24T18:13:00.000+08:00

Well, AGM sumhow ended much better than wat i intend it to be...thx to every1 tat helped out, from the start till the end! We manage to exceed our target, and even had to turn away sum tat wanted to enter...sorry to them, and tat is quite an achievement for every1 i guess! however, of cuz there were a few screwed up stuffs, like insufficient chairs, insufficient doorgifts for all the cons clubs and so on.
After the AGM had to do sum spring cleaning.. but then we had mass dinner at clementi first, and there were sum stuffs that happened...
Aniwae had to stay up till 3 in the morning to clear the whole union room b4 i get to slp, and it was real hard for me to stay completely awake cuz i was so damn tired, but then managed to sleep and thx to sum pple tat were to hyperactive, no one could slp peacefully!
Went home the next morning at ard 9 after social comm meeting. Then was slping when my aunt called me and asked if i wanted sum ndp tix! So i jus said yes, cuz its like my 1st time to NDP at Padang, brought alg 2 more frens, then went there with only 3 hrs of slp tat nite and 2 hrs of slp that noon. Same old stuffs happened at NDP tis yr, actually its getting more boring each yr! even the fireworks were too... but then once the planes and mobile column start their march, man it was like GREAT! i was like a small kid...i tink tats the highlight of every thing. Aft that went makan at marine parade b4 going home.
Now im sick, dunno y... my whole body aching, having a slight headache, and running a slight fever and flu...damn, hope i'll be ok by tis tuesday for Avars outing...dengz

2005-07-13T22:45:00.000+08:00

AGM's planning sumhow is ok but still a few things not confirmed. Even the location needs to be changed! damn.. hope it ends real soon!

Wake Me Up When September Ends
Summer has come and past,
the innocent can never last.
Wake me up when September ends.
Like my fathers come to pass,
seven years has gone so fast.
Wake me up when September ends.

Here comes the rain again,
falling from the stars.
Drenched in my pain again,
becoming who we are.
As my memory rests,
but never forgets what I lost.
Wake me up when September ends.

Summer has come and past,
the innocent can never last.
Wake me up when September ends.
Ring out the bells again,
like we did when Spring began.
Wake me up when September ends.

Here comes the rain again,
falling from the stars.
Drenched in my pain again,
becoming who we are.
As my memory rests,
but never forgets what I lost.
Wake me up when September ends.
Summer has come and past,
the innocent can never last.
Wake me up when September ends.

Like my fathers come to pass,
twenty years has gone so fast.
Wake me up when September ends.
Wake me up when September ends.
Wake me up when september ends.

My fav song at the moment. Everytime i'll listen to it, when i'm happy or down, its still nice to hear to...the beat and the lyrics...all that. Billie Joe Armstrong (guitar, vocals of Green Day) wrote this in memory of his dad... so yeah its quite meaningful for me to... And check the video! its damn nice, its got a great plot, a touching plot!i would always be in deep thoughts everytime i hear the song, so u will see me quiet and in a daze during this time...

Nobody will noe the real me very well, becuz i jus wont let them, or they not trying too hard or they jus trying too hard...

2005-07-10T12:56:00.000+08:00

I'm starting to miss the days from when im born to the days a week ago... as for this sumthing tats happening now, im starting to think abt the days in april to the days a week ago.
cant believe its really like this, i guess i shudnt have taken lightly the advice given by sum pple who had experienced it. now, well i guess its quite too late, but i hope everything will be over soon, aft 22nd july. thankfully, there's still other stuffs tats there to prove otherwise, but thats jus a teeny weeny minority.
but still i dun tink i will ever forget abt this whole thing. from a week ago till 22nd july.
Hope my AGM's a real success, jus gotta put this stuffs aside.

real sorry if whoever think i'm changing for the worse, but this is really wat i feel now.real sorry to whoever it may concern.

2005-07-10T08:54:00.000+08:00

Damn it...been damn busy recently, wit studies, and especially with SPSU's AGM tis yr.. got a few hws and alot of stuffs tat im not so sure... and abt AGM, man we need more help to paint banners, but every1's bz... haha....hope it will be a huge success! SPSU members, if u see this pls come down on monday from 1 onwards to help finish painting the banner and pls make urself free to help wit otha stuffs too! AND SP STUDENTS PLS DO COME DOWN FOR THE SPSU'S AGM 2005 ON 22ND JULY 05 AT 5PM LOCATED AT MLT2!

no comments...

2005-06-30T23:39:00.000+08:00

Warning!!!
If u take a train towards the east ard 5-7 everytime, pls beware of SP students tat live in the east! Damn noisy and crazy bunch of pple! ahahah...
recently jus found out quite alot of pple in SP live in the EAST! YAY!, and better still in Bedok! YESH! ahhaahha...and tats cool!hahahaha

aniwae...another fren of mine abt to be gone, not really gone from this world or anithing like tat, but then hes jus gg abroad for his studies...quite sad lah...so we had a class gathering, and im really thankful for tat, cuz its been only the 1st time since graduation tat we met up! and its been a long time since i hang out wit the guys in dmn 4D'04 tat sit at the back wit me...was happy n oso sad at the same time...

one by one, things change, for the better n oso for the worse...
and i m beginning to learn not to trust too much...fortunately or unfortunately... due to reasons....
and its real hard to make decisions, u mite jus make the wrong decision and you mite neva be able to change it back....haiz...

2005-06-29T22:33:00.000+08:00

Ur dead wrong if ya say ya noe me inside out. Nobody noes me tat well cuz im simply complicated. Unfortunately, me myself sumtimes hav trouble understanding some of the things tat ive done...

2005-06-27T20:12:00.000+08:00

So damn tired now, even though the weekends jus passed and the week's jus abt to start man... Had a headache jus now, thus i went home early wit my mum so shocked to see me reaching home only at 6++! Got so many things to do, so many things jammed up in my brain, maybe tats y theres the headache... Got the whole chpt 2 tutorial needed to be handed in to a lecturer that had earned my hatred tomoro, but then i dun feel like doing it rite now, guess i'll jus go to sch early tomoro and finish it up...
The thing is i feel time really flies by damn damn fast recently... and sumhow tis sux at times lah... aniwae real funny abt the things tat hav been happening to me and ard me...well i guess its jus changes...Life's full of changes wats.... jus gotta learn to accept it...dengz
Aniwae jus now while going for class at T6 from FC 3, thru the yellow tunnel, ideas for the future RDC nitewalk popped thru my mind...muahahahahha! Was hiding outside the tunnel , then i scared the hell out of Justin Leong Coming! wahwhawhwha...shud hav seen his face...
Newae, i shud popped sum panadols and sleep early today...i guess i jus didnt have enuf sleep, tats y this headache came knocking on my head...

2005-06-25T18:43:00.000+08:00

Alot on my mind rite now...actually for quite sum times oready i hav lotsa things on my mind, thus i really cant tink of wat to write now...
i'll write when i feel like it...

2005-06-12T20:52:00.000+08:00

Well...went for a 3d/2n camp organised by SPSU, RDC'05. It's to recruit new members for tat club. Pretty orite but then still its nothing compared to FO camp!!!! ahahah... the highlight of the camp i really think was the nightwalk, went wit a gal cuz i was quite scared, but then it turned out pretty fun but there were shocks here n there...haha, but good thing i neva shouted... haha

Aniwae the camp started on Friday at 6pm, suppose to hav class till 1130 but then in the end it ended at 1030.. slept b4 gg to camp then went there wit Salina. Then got into a group wit geraldine and a few other FO peeps. Was a pretty power grp; Ordiel!...we had a lot of cool cheers in like 20 mins? haha...nice! then played sum activities, and they had a lecture at night; when every1's sleepy...dengz! then 2nd day got another lecture, got into a group where we called ourselves 'Umbrellas'! haha, becuz of the jokes we had abt umbrellas! got a lot of pple tat i knew off were oso in the grp, whereas i got to talk wit those i seldom talk to... but in the end we worked well and damn we had fun...haha!then had sum games b4 we had the nightwalk at nite! The next day had summore games b4 booking out and had late lunch at clementi...

And when Iskandar 'The Rock' said tis mite be his last camp wit SPSU, it was a pretty sad moment, i almost dropped sum tears, but of cuz i neva,dengz, cuz im really touched and really appreciated his efforts to come back to SPSU alot! All the best for ur future endeavours man! and do come back lah if ur free! Aniwae, ur love story damn it was nice man...hahah neva tot it cud be tat real sia...hmmzzzz....

so here is my latest update! wahwhawhawhwah

2005-06-02T19:36:00.000+08:00

Ok...look out for my blog agn...i mite be posting new posts lah... i try to find time but sumtimes i wont be posting lah...u noe wat i mean....

NOTICE

2004-12-19T10:48:00.000+08:00

k, this is for those involved in the match this Tuesday... all the info is here...any enquiries call me...

Dunman Sec 4xp '04 Vs. Bdk² Madrasah Waklu nyer Tanjong
Date: 21.12.04, this Tuesday
Time: By 3:25PM, pls be there
Location: Field beside Mango Park( Opp Temasek Poly)

P.S. dun be late pls. Reach there then we'll confirm the formation, so if anyone's late, u mite not start first... And wear either a red or black jersey or shirt. Wear soccer boots pls. Must win game ah....if can thrash their a$$ bdk² madrasah ni. Not say i got grudges against budak madrasah ah,~maybe abit only ah, kirim salam bapak ako kan,ni ako kirim salam nenek datok ko plak... cume cam nak thrash diorg je... wahwahawhwahawh... If can i wanna score sum goals... muahahah so giv me chances! Thank You Very Much!

2004-11-27T21:25:00.001+08:00

Total waste of time man the match between my class and 4C, seriously... I was really at my boiling point lah, but then throughout the match, i kept my cool and remind myself tat its jus a game, sumtimes i hate losing, especially if its sumthing significant, but usually, i dun giv a damn, like today...
Ok, my day started early, i tink, woke up at ard 9 i tink, played Football Manager 05, play until 12 like tat, and during tat time got bath lah... Then called Mubs over to chill at my house ard 1pm like tat... by the time he reached here, i was ready wit my stuffs to go out, we chilled watchin mtv, Viva La Bam & Pimp My Ride, see.. its a nice show, for both of us, u shud check it out too... every sat, mtv, 1-2pm, tats the 1st telecast of the episodes for tat week... Afta tat went off at ard 2 like tat to Expo, dunno wat bus to take, luckily reached the Expo... Then walked ard at the SITEC, checking out some cool electronics, actually, i go there to look ard for Xbox, hoping to cop one at a cheap price, i mean a cool package, i'm saving money to get one of those consoles, its damn cool man... During tat time oso, managed to check out the COOL Zen Micro, a mp3 player tat i wud love to get, and replace my Muvo²... well, too bad, i've got too many things in mind to own...so tats not a priority, Xbox is one of the prioritys tat i hav now...
Then tot the match start at 4, and i looked at the watch its 3++ so me n Mubs went to BK at Pavilion to hav sumthing, ate until my stomach full, then we separated ways at the Tamp Library.. i reached there, then Kelwin told me the match start at 1630, wah say, tat part i fed up, i eat so fast and rush here to find out the match haven't started....sum reason cuz need to wait for mrs neo... Played the match, damn pathetic, i tot maybe it was the last match we will be playing as a class....so i had hoped to win 4C, which we never won despite them not being the best class lah... Play until 2nd half, they scored first but Azfar equalised... so its 1-1 at half-time... then 2nd half....we leaked in 12 goals, but i managed to squeeze a goal, so final score is 13-2... ahah wad the heck, Steam can go score own goal summore from halfway line.....stupid sia... then afta Steam's 'goal', all got demoralized, tats y maybe we leaked in many goals....totally pathetic..i must admit i played quiet badly, cuz i was damn full from the BK meal...wahwhahw, i had sum momentum in the first few minutes of the match, but then kena tackle, n i fell... then got my shirt pulled when the ball was obviously mine, which led to me losing my head and maybe i lost momentum then..nvm.. i hope maybe we can get back as a class one last time n bag in sum good results lah....HOPEFULLY!... afta tat go home saw tis gal, pretty cute, tot she was a chinese at first, but then saw her lil bro, tat looks completely malay, looked at her and she looked at me...well maybe shud hav asked for her no..well wat to do.. not meant to be.. i jus walked on.... ahahhaha..i tink i like gals tat are fair, but not too fair, then if wan her to be tan... can ask her go for tanning...ahahah, then afta sum time, she will be fair agn.....wahwhahw, wad the heck... then now here.... writing this...

2004-11-26T18:07:00.000+08:00

Okie, y'dae was totally whack man... went jalan raya wit my pri frens then went to town.. aniwae i'll start off with the day before y'dae first..Like i said it was sum grad ceremony. Took my certs then laze ard n need to listen to some speakers speak then went to eat, and i took all five egg sushi from the tray....my fav sushi wat...whawhahw.. then eat n eat n eat until go watson go get my hair dye, its divine mango, for those who dunno, its like brown ok... then met up wit haiqal and some others and faiz to watch shutter, damn funny man... we talked abt sum stupid stuffs, adn some malay gals in front of us even laughed alg wit us, n of cuz there's alot of screams, even ahmingge closed her eyes during the movie... afta tat went str8 home. Shutter was quite nice aniwae....go n watch it! Then met wahidah and my new found 'sedare', izwan, helped them out from some donation thing, and b4 tat got one chinese a$$ oso doing the same thing to us. Tis guy came to us tok abt old pple being unfortunate, tok n tok n tok cock until finally he ask so wanna donate, n i say no, then he push me n faiz aside, typical jacka$$. Then went home chill to get ready for tomoro's walk wit my pri sch frens.Now, i'll talk abt the trip wit my pri sch frens... we suppose to meet at 11, then i n mubin came at almost 12, biase... kate star! All met at khadijah house, faiz hair power sia, blonde, like eminem then hidzer wear some chinese style baju kurung, then every1 call him cine, ahahah kena coloured, but then i oso kena coloured sia, but not terok one ah, hidzer kena one of the terok one, then nasir and kamal oso kena, cuz they schling at bedok green...wahwahwh, fun sia kacau. then went to my house, mine was the third house, then go jalan² then it rained quite heavily, then calling² then many not at home. So we just chill ard then nasir's was the final house, chill there from 5++ till 7 like tat, watch some stupid scary show that is not scary at all, total waste of time. Then see no more house to go, all went home and met at bedok mrt station at 8.30pm to go town.. i came out late tot i late then rush, skali khadijah and nadlyn reached there only at 9++.....damn them man!! then go cathay cineleisure met up wit mubin and shahrul and khadijah and nadlyn bfs..., went to buy tix, but me n mubin at first didnt buy...wahwhahw, then they go eat and the boys go find cuppage until reach le meridien hotel, faiz n hidzer ah, confident say at there, at there when actually we missed it... then found cuppage, play pool, me n mubs just sat for abt 15 mins then went off. I took the train oready n almost reached city hall, then my mum called me to tell me to stay at town, then called back mubin to meet at somerset again, we joined the others for the movie! It was oready 11++ pm by then, then me n mubs act like we missed the last train, then shahrul confidently said that he was right abt saying tat there's no more train when actually we were fooling him! ahahah. Then 12.30 went back to cathay to get mubs n mine tix, gd thing we got the tix jus beside the others.. we watched Bridget Jones' Diary. Luckily mubs treated me to the movie cuz damn the movie was boring, and i even accidentally slept during it, while being restless all the while... afta tat sat outside cheers, then faiz go disturb some princesses, cus there was a lot of gals dressed like princesses for their prom nite i guess....wahwahw funny sia, got one even turned ard but then her fren pull her....ahahahOk...now i'll start abt the journey from there to geylang.... actually we wanted to walk all the way to Bedok bu then all tired, see got bus oready then take bus from Geylang... ok we walked quite fast ah, reaching PS got some pool of water, keep splashing water, and nasir kena the terok!! wahwhawh, then at ard dhoby gaut MRT station got one car power sia, red convertible! then at there that bloody cinaboy hidzer act terror do push up in middle of road, can lah no car, but then do push up oso like wanna die, then tot of going up fort caning park, then cancel the idea, then continue walking, reached SMU area, nadlyn go take cab wit his bf sia, while we were waiting at a bus stop, disturbing taxi drivers tat tot we need to hire a cab...ahahah hidzer stupid ask got go JB or not, pple ask lah digimon world or pokemon world sia.. then shahrul, nasir, led by faiz climbed on top of a busstop there cuz waiting for kadhijah and his boy to come out of toilet. Then got frp of chinese boys walk, look like wat to pick a ite, skali i started laughing then they walk pass us, ahakz...no idea... then faiz jumped down until his slippers came off and landed falt on his butt..ahaks, luckily the slippers can fix... then go no the nearest 7-11 to get sum things, then tat are, got lots of bapok sia... Then walk on the expressway by the nicholl highway, very ulu and then take stones throw at some construction site...wahwahwhah, walk n walk until geylang area, all happy, see prostitutes and got one faiz fren...wahwhahaw.... then until Lor 31, stopped took bus cuz 5++ am oready, then bus start moving oready, but kadhijah n his boy still continue, can lah they got motivation...then come home at 6++ slept wake up at 11++ to go prayers.....ahahha....wat a journey..... and we oready planned to go to town one day wit shorts and sport shoes jus to walk from there back to Bedok.... wahwahhw, we will achieve tat one day man, ok todays so long, the next time i'll post another of Azri's story..wahwahwh cya guys

2004-11-17T21:40:00.000+08:00

updating tis blog real soon...chill...

2004-10-24T22:28:00.000+08:00

k...forgot wat happened the past few week..only remebered wat i did today and y'dae....short term memory ah...
Well, y'dae went to Creative HQ, to repair my mp3 player, see it was spoilt....damn it was far....then farid was late, got held up, so farhan and me dropped by penny to check things out, saw this pair of jeans $80...gonna buy it, but first i ma check out Da Source first, see if any other pants im attracted too, need a pair rite now, if can more ah... Yeah, actually meeting at 2 to go str8 to jurong, then postponed to 230,then 3, in the end reached jurong east mrt station only at abt 445. Then go there took a bus, cuz its drizzling, then walked one big round cuz we missed the HQ when we happily passed it...muahahah..nvm wat the heck. Then tot i gotta leave my mp3 there for servicing but it turns out that they gave me a new one!!!!! COOL!!! Ima support Creative all the way now....yeah got it back.. then checked the time 1800++ so decidec to take some sweets, mentos and sugus..muahaha free wat.... then go to the showhouse at the second level, looked ard, and i played the prodikeys....damn it was cool, can help to produce beats....hope to get one soon.......muahahah, many things i wanna buy man...but no money...money do make the world go round.... Then going back time, all hungry oready keep joking ard.... fasting wat... i took the cover for wet umbrellas and blew it, then keep poking farhan....mauhaha, at jurong east int...cant decide whether to take 506 or take mrt....in the end took mrt cuz cheaper....muahahahha, inside train continue to be crazy and keep praising Creative... then braking fast time, my mom called, then i azan... and eat our korma, tat is the mentos that i took....muahahah, but it pays, cuz i got new set of MP3s, even my spoilt FM controller was replaced.....muahahahah
Today nothing much, slept after the sahur and woke up only at abt 11++, after popping some pills cuz i had running nose.. then woke up, slept again studied then go prayers..... then here i am....cant wait for man utd vs arsenal...muahahah.... Oh yeah...almost forgot about the mass grave of some flying insects and ants...ahahah..my bro forgot to wash off some listerine...and they like drinked it i think....and they got drunk....ahahaha some dead some alive, then i let it be, coming back later.....came back later and saw it clean.....guess my mom had washed it....muahahah wat a pity....jus wanna see it died slowly.....too bad.... ok, today is a long one...another of azri's story....here u go.....

Dear Journal, Medical sicence is such a wonderful thing. I did not follow up medical science updates bu now i feel that I am interested in it. The wonders of both stories is beyond belief. Although the one about the DNA thing make sense to me but the one about the eye thing is quite weird. Adriano Bocelli would be glad to know that there is another way of getting his sight back. The bad thing about medical science is that not everybody knows about it. If Adriano Bocelli knew that this method of retrieving his sight is present, he would have done it because he is quite a rich blind singer. This example shows that even a popilar singer does not know about medical sciences. Medical sciences need publicity and when I say that, I mean a lot of publicity and not some. Can't imagine what whe world will become if medical sciences go beyond their limits. The living dead maybe? Hope it doesn't have to come to this or if i live to see that day.
Grade : C6, good effort Mrs Beth Low 27/3

2004-10-20T22:22:00.000+08:00

Okie today, the entry is just for me to tell every1 tat i watched 'Our America' yet again, for the third time oready, but watched halfway thru, i donno y i like watching it, but damn its meaningful....muahahah..wat to do, wat happened today and the past few days, i'll post another time, now damn tired and dont feel like doing so....aniwae here's another of Azri's story.....enjoy.....damn stressed man rite now

The Stalker
My sister was stalked the past few days, The stalker 'hacked' into my sister hotmail account. I prefer to say that he guessed my sister's favourite animal to retrieve her password. What nOOb. Now I am deciding whether to return the 'favour' he gave my sister or just forget it happened because he suffering. Love hurts. It sucks. It is something I want to stay away from. He emailed me threats in one time and 3 days later, he apologize. He realises that if the wanted to be my sister's husband, he will need to go through me. I will have a huge role in deciding the person whoe will be my sister's husband. I have already chose one and i think he will be the person i will chose as my sister's husband.
Teacher's Comments : Eh? Your sister us older or younger. If she's older and is really much older. Is this guy someone to be worried about? Will he harm her or you family? Pls take care and dont take things to lightly
My Comment : What a caring teacher...WOW!!! Aniwae nicknamed this tcher BeLo, cuz her name is Beth Low.... ahahah, she's no longer teaching us...muahahah, some say kena sack, some say she go Unevastudy.... donno wat happened to her...muahahahaha

2004-10-18T17:42:00.000+08:00

Ok... start off wit y'dae first.... The only thing that i remember is I break fast eating fish n chips from 511, long time sia neva eat, tot closed down oready the shop, then my bro found that its still open only at a diff place....not bad ah the fish n chips....very big!!!!
Then today, reach sch for Olevel comb science pract late... actually wake up at 0615, cuz sleep afta the sahur... then sit n watch tv until 0645. Then go out decided to take somehow the longer route, donno y...jus feel like it, then at there the bus freaking long, i reach the stop at 0650, then the bus came only at 0700, then full, then wait for another bus 2 mins later. Reach int only at 0705 then 28 jus past...shit.. then wait for another one which cam only at 0720.... took it, tot can reach sch in time, then reached tamp sec at ard 0730, so decided to go down take taxi, cuz must report at 0745, taxi fare $3.10, nvm, luckily my mom gave me $5 today despite fasting, tho feel such a waste, jus becuz of sumthing late... Luckily not late, then reach sch, start only at 0755.... came home my mom told me she was shocked and worried when my teacher called home say i wasnt still in sch, when i was like panicking cuz im gonna late, wat a joke, but not as a joke for the $4.90 just to go to the toilet which shud be free, u wanna noe abt it, ask me...im sure u will laugh ur a$$ off... aniwae back to todays events, 1st shift, so must wait until 1330 b4 released, then during tat time, do work b4 disturbing Batam gal and Sheila WongWongDARLING, got poked, and there's a bright red mark on my leg, but small only ah, got drawn, got kicked, esp by Sheila, now my knees are hurting, wat kind of wife i have....haiz, at least im not scratched today or contract HIV from Batam gal...muahahahah.. then go home damn tired and hungry, so slept until ard 5.... tats all i tink for now, nite go prayers... now i will pass the blog to Azri with his great stories.. nothing was changed, its the exact replicate...

Dear reader,
I don't know what to write. Nothing special had happen. Just the same normal life. Go to school, come home, do homework, play games, then exercise and so on and so forth. The only 'it' is that my tests have been easy and i am getting high marks for them although i expected higher. Secondary school life has been boring. I believe in patterns. I enjoyed a lot in my primary school life. So many happenings. Safe life , my first infactuation, recommend So maybe I enjoyed my primary school so i need to suffer my secondary school. And then enjoy again in Jc and suffer in universit and then enjoy in marriage life and suffer again when old. Want to hear out my theory? The patterns thy that i stated above, happens to most people. There are only some people who can balance their pattern, meaning that they do not suffer and enjoy but in the middle. This was proven by Professor Azri after 'surveying' a lot of people.
Teachers Comments : Hope you continue to put in more efforst in your work See ya, Mrs Beth Low 11/2

kudos to him ya'll....

2004-10-16T18:43:00.000+08:00

Ahahah....abt my life now...y'dae managed to break fast wit my family, cuz first day of fast, then rushed to sch for nite study, goin home time run from Batam gal and Sheila WongWongDARLING..... like hell, sweat like hell, run around the carpark all tat, luckily neva kene scratched.....yes.... first time unharmed.....then go up bus, uncle switch on aircon full blast then shiver like hell.....today go cut hair.....shit damn short.....shorter than urs sia fiz......nvm....at least more air can diffuse thru....ahahahah....aniwae here's another of Azri's aka AZK the great stories....damn funny.....ahhahahahah... sure read thru, clear ur thirst for his comedy....muahaha, this one not so funny....got funnier one....jus wait for it lah....

New Year Resolution 16.1.04
To improve in academic performance. To excel in soccer. Improve leadership qualities. Wing most events I enter in sports day. Win inter-house soccer because last year Mr Ronald Yap cheated us and we didn't qualify to the finals. We could have won because we won the team that won third place during the qualifying rounds. This year, we will make sure we will not be cheated again. No more playoffs, we will qualify to the Finals. I will also build up my body. I must get a lot of A1 in my O levels. I will also not get to school late for even once because the discipline action of getting late is more strict
Teacher Comments : More studying and less football please!!!

Nothing was changed, it is the exact replicate.....of Azri's the great work....

2004-10-15T16:04:00.000+08:00

k...... first day of puasa, damn hungry now... but nvm... i can hold on for abt 3 more hrs... Well jus finished watching Our America on HBO for the second time... Like i said in the previous entry, its a real good movie, altho it does not have the best effects and all tat, but its story is damn amazing... it actually came from a book the two guys wrote and they turned it into a movie....if ya got time and ya wanna noe more abt it... got to yahoo and type 'Our America' and there will be a list of things... Went for friday prayers jus now, now wanna sleep, then 6++ wake up to break fast then must go sch for nite study...tats all, and i'll post another of azri's stories when i m not tired....
And still finding sum1 to produce beats for my crew....ani1 kind enuf.....pls help....