so yea... didnt start off the year quite tat well wit tat first post! haha...well shiet happens so yea.
and last month, december was seriously my worst december ever i tink.. but no matter, december is always and will always be my favourite month and period, cause its the festive and holiday period and also my bday! and yah... that explains also why my favourite no is 12(december is the 12th month of the year anw in case sum of ya'll dunno).
anw yah... it was the worst one ever cause yeaps lotsa stuffs happened, but it wasnt all bad, cus i dunno.... rite now it seems that i shud make the best out of everything, believe that sum1 out there is gg thru the same shiet as me, or even worse... so yea, but that never meant that i cant be put down! cus yea, believe it or not im human afterall and i do have emotions! so vuallaa... i dun tink i'll go into much detail cus yea, any1 can read this from all ard the world and yah, i dun tink its sumthing im comfortable wit. so yea, my mind was in a real whirlwind and everythin was moving so fast and i jus kept it to myself even though i feel like jus pouring it out to sum1 but still yea i guess no point telling any1 anw, maybe one day i will! ahahahah i dunno lah... and its not only 1 problem, it jus keeps piling up and i feel like im in depression! wahawhawh dengs...
anw yah, i believe talking things out is the best solution for anything, but it depends on the person if they can sit there and last it or jus stop halfway and say 'tats it, im done, im tired, if tats how it is, then let it be', cus i tink thats sad... and yah a comprimise wudnt be reached and so, the prob persists and it will inflate and by then it wud be too late to save it... so vualla, again its the decision u make. no guns to ur head and if tats ur final one, i guess no problems can be solved if all u tink is having the easiest way out, and not sacrificing or gg thru troubles for it... cus if tired is ur reason, tats the bullshietest excuse on earth, cus man, get it in ur head that that just shows u dun care, u dun treasure it and seriously go jump down! hahaha ok stop here! ahahah cause no matter if the problem is that stupid or sum other stuffs, still jus talk abt it and ensure that its not tat big a problem cus it mite jus add on to other problems and taaaddaaaa...
oh yeah... and i watched 'Shall we dance?' on hbo or is it star movies... yah then theres this part, after his wife found out that he dances and was wrong abt him having an affair, so he stopped dancing altogether to make sure there'll be no more misunderstanding, even aft his wife suggested that he teached her how to dance so they can dance tgt,... then he said sumthing like this to her,
'having u as my wife is one of the proudest thing that happened in my life, and sumtimes i'll put aside my happiness, and keep it away to make sure that you'll be happy and i wun hurt u'
so yea, i guess that if sum1, ur friend or ur beloved one especially, never commented anithing, it doesnt mean that they are totally fine, but then they're jus keeping things to themselves and trying to make sure that they wun hurt u if they were to pour out their unhappiness... and u shud at least ask them instead of expecting them to tell u everything cus tat way, they noe at least that u wanna noe and they wun feel uneasy to tell u... so yea, personally i feel easier to open up to sum1 who ask abt me rather then jus go up to others and tell them abt wat i feel... i guess so do many other pple...hahaha
anw i was saying tat any1 can read this, imagine 1 hot ang moh gal reading this and then fell in love wit me.... like woah... ahahah ok im dreaming...wtf ahhaahha
anw the mofos has been a great support cus yea, altho i dun tell them stuffs, they do noe shiets gg on and yah they did ask me but they never crossed the boundary when i needed space, and they were there when i needed them, especially my beloved wife, lala! see! im appreciating u! u shud be grateful man!! and my grandson, cute lil ong!awawhawhawh so yea thank you. anw its really amazing how we all got tgt...seriously... tat nite, me batam and musmus tried to recall how it all started at esplanade. and we can never really like confirm how it really started, with the fact that we never really met a few months aft o levels... and we are not so super close, all of us, when we were in the same class... ok maybe we were quite close lah, the back pple, me, ong, musmus, faiz always disturbing lala, and tat stupid batam act dao! blardy hell! and yah bhoon always crash our class to join in and fir like get to noe us only when he was in the same class wit faiz in mj. i guess amazing things do start out simple... =)
and yah, seriously... they've always been there for me, when i was always coming late, thx to union..stupid union...hahahah, they will wait for me! ahahah and i swear its really really late and its a handful no of times.... ahhaha... i guess thats sumthing im proud to hav! i dunno i guess tat this is one of the greatest thing that happened for me in 2006, we got closer tgt! and yah, batam and lala was saying tat they went shopping once then this lady asked them, 'u all sisters?' then they said 'nopes, friends...since sec sch...' then the lady continued, 'oooo... u noe that ur sec sch friends are the ones that u will keep thruout ur life...' so yea, i hope we'll still hang out even aft we get married....
oh yah then that day we were talking abt migrating, then we say why not we all migrate tgt...then aft that we buy one piece of land and start a villa, then i suggested 'tats good, then after that we can marry our children wit each other!!!' wahawhawh and tat stupid lala jus gotta eeeeee damn long! wahawhawhwah jacko! i guess i'll talk more abt all this in another posts?? ahahah
but yeah...its nice to reminisce old stuffs... and i do hope tat sum things never change... and yea, i have a few in particular in mind..=S hahaha but yah, no matter things move on, and altho its the new year, im still having problems catchin up wit everything, everthings like so fast-paced...and yah, im caught up in all of its web... imagine this, i love to sleep alot, and guess wat, everyday i'll sleep ard 2am the earliest... and wake up at 8.30am.. so yea i guess im having sleeping disorder rite now, and yah everytime i wake up, my mind jus start to wander and its really torturing everyday...sux! sumtimes i jus wish that i cud sleep 23hrs a day and jus spend 1 hr awake...tat way my wild mind wun hav those stupid tots, like now...ahahah! but well well well, at least now i find a new hobby, and believe it or not, its reading! and its super weird cus ive never liked reading all my 18 years of life, but when i started now, i jus dun wanna stop cus seriously it brings me to a place where i dun hav to think of such stuffs...and rite now im on 'Flags of our Fathers' that i bought for almost 17 bucks!! my first ever storybook that i ever bought!hahah but its damn nice and ive not watched the movie lah...so yea... i'll talk abt it in another post! been damn long ord! ahahah but i'll end wit one sentence from the book....
Mothers should negotiate between nations.
The mothers of the fighting coutries would agree:
Stop this killing now. Stop it now.
- YOSHIKUNI TAKI