im suppose to be sleeping cus sch starts early tmr... but here i am, cus i cant sleep! ahhaha been rolling ard the bed for like 30 mins, and in the end i gav up, i woke up, i went to the toilet to pee, and here i am now!!! ahhahaha
weeee...and now im bored... no actually tired lahs...dengs wtf... anw the new internet explorer sux, cus it slows down my comp and lags alot!
so the male mofos all gg taiwan during the holidays! like wtf...to catch sum taiwan babes, and i cant follow, cus ive got attachment and im totally broke...sux... so yea i'll be here in sg doing my attachment but at least the 2 dumbies will be in sg! at least i can disturb them!wahawhawhahaha
flaunt it this fri and yeaps, i do hope its gonna be a success, ahahahah noe wat i mean. ive got my doubts but who cares!!! ahahah
oh yah, who got nice storybooks to lend me...cus yea, at the rate im going wit the current book, i tink i mite jus finish it by the end of this week, which is very fast according to my standards, and yah i dun wanna end up w/o any books to read....
yea, my mind my mind my mind, can u jus jump out of my head so tat i dun hav to be tired by you, cus seriously im tired wit all these thoughts in my mind, i dun wanna tink abt it! i wanna live happilY! like when i was young! no problems! care-free! this world really sux, and wit u ard, i jus cant stop thinking of all these stuffs and then i'll be so tired of my own thoughts and i'll be so down like for eg now, i cant slp, cus while lying down, i start to think, and then it never stops and so here we have it.... jus go and hav sum holidays for urself, come back only when i need u! pls will u do tat for me! i swear i'll treat u better if u do this for me! after all, ur mine... so u better get ur ass moving! muahahahah
my god this is crazy.... yeaps i tink im gg crazy... is this bad? ahahahha i hope its nto tat serious! ahahahh i ve got a great future ahead of me! ok maybe not but i wanna live life to the fullest! and i was asking lala and batam, how old wud u wanna grow old till? then i told them i never wanna grow old pass 60++, cus i dun wanna be a burden to my family and walk ard everywhere weak and all, then they said that wud be selfish of me... then i told them, i'll make sure everything will be perfect for them before i leave! and speaking of family, i want to have 3 kids! 2 guys and a gal! so tat the guys can protect my daughter, and i swear to love them alot! jus like my parents!ahahah but well tats long ago, but i do noe i wanna have 3 kids! tats not alot! ahahahah and yah, then i told them i dun wanna be too rich! but at least more money then i need lah... ahahah ok confusing! cus i dun wan my children to be fighting for it when i leave! i'll make sure i raise them well!!! hahahah and now i feel like i wanna be an entrepreneur! set up my own business! ok 'pop' my balloon! hahaha im dreaming too much! ahahahah
it seems a lil stupid writing all these here, but well...ahahah at least i can rant ard!!! hahaha anw i really really hope once i go back to bed, i wun start to think agn! cus it really sux and its tiring and its torturing...i guess i jus gotta keep talking and talking so that i wun stop to start to thinK! ahahahah if only theres a device where u can talk to it! ahahahah ok nvm, that mite jus be possible in the future! ahahah... yea i guess i need to find a friend that wun get tired of me ranting to them everytime! ahahahah my cats? well they've got too short of attention span!ahhahah talk talk talk! i wanna talk my life away! wahawhawhaw! weeeeee
anw another phrase i came up with, well to help me boost my confidence a lil! ahahha
'Sure you can find someone better than me, but you'll never find another me.'
-Shafiq =)
well, so yea its also to remind me, that every1 is unique, and i'll lose out myself if i lose my friends! even if i manage to find new ones! i'll never forget my past! =)