Monday, January 29, 2007
ytd was really cool... shouted my arse off and had fun!!! =) seriously, it was one of the proudest moments for me as a singaporean, seeing all the people that filled up the entire stadium, despite the drizzle... and it was surely fun shouting cheering cursing and everything! haha
and ive not studied for the weekend... jus finished watching my girl! all 16 episodes of it! a nice drama! ahahah go watch if any of u all are bored! ahahah BAXIA!!! =)
dear lie,
you're not what i had really wanted. but do what you have to, jus make things right... '=/
me myself & i!_____2:14 AM
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Wednesday, January 24, 2007
i went to the toilet 3 times to pee in 15 mins jus now! like wtf... i came back to sit for awhile and the call of nature came so i went back into the toilet then out and into agn... bravo! ahahah
And i passed my BTT!! weee and i was the first person to come out, and theres this gal who's like got the 'attitude' sitting beside me, and i tot i saw her looking shocked when i stood up from my place with a 'PASSED' on my screen! ahahah nah nvm.. so gonna hav my 3rd practical tmr... driving is kinda cool rite now for me, but its a lil tiring to go there everytime, lucky thing its jus a 10min bus ride from my place... hahaha u noe how i passed? i asked my imaginary friend to whisper me the answers! muahahahah
so wed,thurs and fri nite will be spent in sch studying! at the same time being paid... how cool! ahaha but then it was pretty much tiring tat fri cus its freaking 12 long hours! i swear i can die there, i went to sleep woke up, went to sleep woke up, went to slp agn and woke up agn, a few times, and it really really feel like the needles of the clock was crawling like a snail!!!!!! omg! but still, im paid, so cant complain! ahahah
been hooked by this korean drama, 'My Girl'... yes i noe im a lil slowpoke, but at least i have sumthing to kill time off when im bored now... their songs are ncie too... and the drama, personally i tink its nice, cus yea, i like this kinda cheesy storyline... its not wrong for a guy to enjoy this kinda shows rite? ahhaha who cares!!! yea its sweet nice and all but well, its a lil tat... ahahah nah nvm
and yah, im always making my own mess..dengs! im confused!! garhs garhs garhs.. weeets weets weets, nvm things take time so yea... weets weets
anw this song is nice for me now i tink...the lyrics are cool.. SOHC Pres Jeff sent! ahaha =D
Secondhand Serenade - Half Alive
It's four AM, I'm waking up to your perfume
Don't get up, I'll get through on my own
I don't know if I'm home
Or if I lost the way into your room
I'm spiraling into my doom
I'm feeling half alive but I know one day
You and I will be free,
To live and die by our own rules,
Free..
Despite the fact that men are fools.
I'm almost alive, and I need you to try
And save me.
It's okay that we're dying,
But I need to survive tonight, tonight.
Well excuse me while I get killed softly,
Heart slows down and I can hardly tell you I'm okay
At least 'til yesterday,
You know you got me off my highest guard,
Believe me when I say it's hard.
We'll get through this tonight
And I know one day you and I will be free
To live and die by our own rules,
Free..
Despite the fact that men are fools.
I'm almost alive, and I need you to try
And save me.
It's okay that we're dying,
But I need to survive tonight, tonight.
And you touch my hand ever so slightly
(Girl we're not ready for this yet)
And the deadly look she cast upon me
I won't regret, I won't regret
I won't regret. I won't regret...
And I was trying to disappear,
But you got me wrapped around you
I can hardly breathe without you
I was trying to disappear
But I got lost in your eyes now,
You brought me down to size now.
I'm almost alive
And I need you to try and save me.
It's okay that we're dying
But I need to survive tonight, tonight
Tonight...
I'm almost alive, and I need you to try
And save me.
It's okay that we're dying,
But I need to survive tonight, tonight.
I need to survive tonight, tonight
Amazing that sumtimes, u can jus relate your stuffs to songs and shows... =)
me myself & i!_____12:26 AM
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Sunday, January 21, 2007
i wanna hav an imaginary friend! muahahaha... i was watching tv jus now when my brother was telling my mum abt his friend's little son talking all by himself, and usually in this kind of cases, it will usually be associated wit parnormal stuffs... so yea... ahahah anw, i jus wanna hav imaginary friend, but not the paranormal stuffs, jus an imaginary friend i can talk to! dengs i jus need to talk! ahahah this blog aint tat good. get wat im tryna say? no? nvm its ok, my imaginary friend will! muahahaha
now comes the hard part... a name for it? ahahahha weird
and then my mum showered my cats, and the older one, omg!!! i saw his balls all black! ahahha he's damn old ord! i kept him since 8 years ago, and during tat time, he was already considered and adult cat... and cats live only for so long!!! and i tink i'll die if he even died!!! cus he's like the one that will response when u call out his name, he will come to my bedside every nite to get scratched!! at the neck, not the balls...ahahah but cats like it sumtimes so yea, i do scratch above the balls not the balls! ahahah ok ive got 2 cats, the other one much younger but he kinda sux cus hes scared of every single thing! and he never responds to ur calls unless uve got food! but he wasnt like tat when he first came to my place, but i tink its becus of one incident whereby he almost fell out of the window, while showing off to another cat belonging to sumwhere who lives in the opposite block. i tink that caused him a trauma and tats y he's a scaredy cat now... i dunno... dengs.. but my cats rox! no matter!
me myself & i!_____11:15 PM
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Saturday, January 20, 2007
aites, so saufi's bday today... happy bday saufi!! ahahah 20 years old ord...super old lah! ahahah and well, aft today, seriously tis few more things were proven rite!!! ahahah no comments! weets weets
anw, tell u wat year 1s of the beautiful SP students' union! not taking cheap shots at u fkers, but jus an advice, be humble...seriously, wat u achieve is something but its not everything, and trust me man, u all still have lots to learn, jus like me, so yea, watch wat u do and say... and we'll live happily ever after! =)
moving on... jeff n me were talking abt our mums nagging to us, especially as the papers are drawing nearer!! ahah and tats is super funny i tinK! and even my GORR GORR keat moo complaining abt her mum being extra naggy too!! ahahah wats wrong wit the mothers of the world now!! ahahaha
anw this world, is running in a system whereby everything is interconnected and interdependent... and tat sux... seriously, i'll be lying if i said tat all the stuffs tat happen ard me will never affect me. the best i can do is jus to minimise the effects upon me, and thankfully sum are not for long nor are they noticeable...
ahaha
the thing is, for me, im quite sure of wat i really want...but then sumtimes im jus so scared of wat others might think, more importantly how others will be affected, especially those directly involved...im scared if tats not wat they want, im scared if they think its not right, i jus care too much abt wat they think and scared of wat the outcome mite be, and well tat contributes to the uncertainties to carry out wat i want... and tis sux cus it really drives me crazy... and to make matters worse, im such a paranoid, that i mite mistook the other person's action as a negative response and then i'll be put off...dengs... i jus wanna live on to be sum1 who dont make others unhappy. sumtimes i jus wish i noe wat they are thinking, so i can make decisions easier... so i wun make them unhappy and at the same time save me all the troubles! ahahaha actually, i dun really care much abt wat the so many others tat dun matter to me feel, but the few special ones... and whenever it involes the few special ones, sum of the decisions i gotta make are jus so hard... and i will be so lost that i go crazy!!!! dengs... and yea, im not good at expressing myself... so tats y even tho it may seems tat i mite not want it, actually i do want it.... weird... dengs... nvm
hmmmmss... wateva it is, nothing horrible will happen to me... weeee =)
me myself & i!_____11:48 PM
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Friday, January 19, 2007
ok... im having a slight stomach upset rite now, cus ive not eaten dinner.. but i drank up lots of gassy soft drinks... and i cant eat now even though im hungry cus im bloated wit the soft drinks... wth... i seriously shud learn to eat wat and wat not.
so 2 more weeks to the examinations, in which i will have 5 papers over a period of 2 weeks! dengs... and tmr i ma start to study overnight at sch, but at the same time, im gg to get paid!!! tats wonderful! ahahah oh yah, having a 2d1n camp in between the papers too! wahawhwah wtf! i need to relax too u noe! ahahah
okok, i tink the year 2 excos rocks now! altho this mite contradict sum of my other comments, but well, of cus there's moments that we share which is simply cool! and yah i do think we rox! ahahah so discard all the bad remarks i mite hav said! ahahah and yea yea yea, i cant wait for FO camp!!! it wud be fun, and hopefully my itp company wud be nice enuf to let me off for this camp! ahahah i surely dun wanna miss it! ahahaahh and yea, theres a mix of feelings for me that the 47th union is gonna end real soon so yea, wateva happens in the future wud seriously be good for me... dengs who doesnt... hahaha i jus hope not much shit will fall upon me no matter wat the future holds for me! pls god, this is one of my prayers! =) dengs
anw... i dunno y but i believe in happy endings, like those in the movies... i like fairytales, and yes i dream alot... =) plus daydreaming... dengs. and yea i do wish for happy endings to happen to me... =) it will happen i believe.. it will! ahaha
be my fairytale then... =)
me myself & i!_____12:20 AM
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Tuesday, January 16, 2007
im tired rite now!!! ahahah ive got to rush a freaking assignment ytd nite... and its a stupid module, pme...mechanics shiet! and i sux at it! woohoo! but then i did complete it! so bravo to me!!!
anw i missed today's the arena... who noes wats the topic? and who won it? i wanna noe! ahahah i tink the show's quite cool, ive been fascinated by debates since young, and i guess tat explains why i talk too much! ahahaha
and speaking of talking... had a pretty nice talking session with the excos! and yea we had fun! muahahahah i guess tats one of the few fun memories i'll bring alg wit me from this council! ahahah and tats not all!!! theres so many funny stuffs gg on rite now, and yah most of em inside jokes, so i tink it will only be the few of us laughing! wahawhawhawh now tats weird! but who cares, laughing rox! ahahahah
oh yeah, i was coming home today and i saw this gal wit this angmoh! ahahah okok, i sound jealous but seriously i feel sad when i see asians wit angmohs! not racist! never will i be racist...but its like clash of culture, and erms, i m quite conservative, and i dun believe i'll trade my culture and beliefs with the westerners, cuz basically... in my eyes, most of theirs are really undesirable? ahahah tats my opinion! so maybe the arena shud debate abt this! ahahah ironic cus i keep talking abt california lifestyle being fun and all! ahahah
and besides tat, gonna have sum lil income coming this month! so yea... i'll hav a lil extra money... and council's ending!... sch's ending! exam starting! attachment starting! FO preps starting! years 1s gonna die! muahahah ok nah jus kidding!
dengs
me myself & i!_____11:19 PM
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Sunday, January 14, 2007
kkk... i really wanna blog abt this. and i gotta blog this.
yea... so i really wanna thank tis 1 person, cus aft giving me tis advice, tat advice made me feel much better, much lighter now!!! altho i reacted a lil harshly when u told me, i never tot it wud like wake me up a lil now.. and yah, rite now, seriously im not sure how to thank u, cus i dun even noe how to start a conversation wit u, so yea, i guess i can only thank u here now... =) i dun tink u'll even noe tat im refering to u, but yea..i wanna sincerely thank u... i'll thank u personally if a chance comes by, cus yea... im not really a person wit balls dengs... =)
Thank You. =)
me myself & i!_____8:41 PM
Met JEFF SOHC!!! at national stadium jus now for the sg viet match! i was with farhan jr, eric and justin and farhan's lil bro, which is not tat lil aft all! wahawhawh so sg sux and they drew the match... so much for the nike jerseys.... ahahaha supposedly my bro asked me to go there wit him but then i was lazy so he decided to go meet his friend instead but then i called him to say im gg... ahahah wtf...
I M GONNA START TO STUDY FROM NEXT WEEK ONWARDS! I MUST STUDY!!! NO MORE PLAYING!!! STUDY STUDY STUDY! I WILL STUDY!!!
i do say i like to talk... but when i dun feel like talking, seriously dun talk to me... yes im not nice, yes im not friendly, tat jus adds on to the fact that u shudnt talk to me rite rite? ahahahah ok im weird, but seriously sumtimes the things pple talk abt are kinda ridiculous and i hav no idea how to join in the conversation, so rather then i irritate pple by toking nonsense, wudnt it be better if i jus keep my mouth shut! yea! muahahahha and seriously... im not tat open minded i guess, tats y i cant engage in certain conversations well enuf lahs... so yea... my bad... dengs! i'll get into the conversation agn if it interests me or ive got sumthing to say, other then that ive got nothing to say... ahahah
tmr gonna relax fully so i'll be ready for next week... dengs study study study... i believe its much better than having to work every day!
oh yeah, pple... if u all got any opinions abt me, cut me some slack, gimme a break and dun tell me... im having enuf with those i ord got! so thk u and pleasure talking to u all! woots
me myself & i!_____1:29 AM
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Saturday, January 13, 2007
so today was taufik batisah's concert, and then there was flaunt! it, and groove coliseum is over, finally! and had my second pract! it was raining almost the whole day...so yea, a nice weather to sleep but i had sch from 12! sux...
have not met wit them mofos for a week ord i tink... every1's been bz so yea hopefully we'll meet soon... ahahah and my studying plans are going as planned! dengs... i really hope i can get a C at least, if not better... and who got christina aguilera - hurt? and keane - we might as well be strangers, and making april - these are the nights, and caffeine - far away??? send me if ani of u got it! thx
and yah, jus now on our way back from mosque, took a bus back to sch cus it was raining, but then the traffic stopped for damn long, at first tot it was the red lights, but it was too long, so we decided to alight from the bus, and we walked a few metres down and saw a freaking tree fell onto a bus, and that covered the whole 3 lane road!! so every vehicle got stuck there and god noes how long the traffic got held up there, good thing we alighted or yea, god noes how long i'll be cursing pple... ahahah
so we walked thru the rain, and i walked thru the rain so many times today! and it jus makes me happy! =) i dunno, its jus sumthing i wanted to do for so long... and i got to do it today! its jus so nostalgic for one reason! ahahah i rmb when i was young, my mum wud bring me down to fetch my dad =) i miss him! and my mum taught me this kampong game, whereby u dropped a piece of leaf into the drain and let it flow... so yea i wud drop it at one point, and then i'll follow it thru the drain til it dropped into and underground drain, whereby i can no longer see it! under the rain with my cute lil raincoat! and my mum wud challenge me sumtimes and she'll use the smaller leaves and outrun my bigger ones... ahahah it was fun looking the leaves flow, getting so engrossed wit sumthing so simple! i ma play it again one day... i wanan find the longest drain in singapore, and drop it at the starting point, and i wanna follow it all the way to aniwhere! maybe it will bring me to a mermaid's place! ahahaha but if tats not possible, i wanna go play in the rain! i wanna walk in the raiN! i wanna dance in the rain! ok maybe i shud do tat! rain rain come today!! lil shafiq wanna play!
i wanna be a small kid again.... its jus ironic that when u were young, u wanna be older, but now when ur old u wanna be young again..
i guess surprises are everywhere, every corner... ahahah i dunno, i guess im anticipating sum stuffs to happen, listening to others talk, and yes unfortunately im swayed by wat others talk, true or not, but part of me says it is,... and yah i wun be totally shocked if those stuffs happen, but unfortunately the things wun be really what i'll consider nice but i do hope its not true...
nobody can ever really noe wat another individual is thinking, feeling or gg thru. the best that we can do is try to understand them, and make things easier for them i guess... i swear nobody will ever noe wats my full story, cus basically im not tat good at expressing myself, especially wit words, although ironically i talk alot.. but u can tell a lil wats gg on in my life by jus observing me, and yea, thats how sumtimes i try to understand wat others are gg thru, observe them, altho i mite not be always right, but i do believe in my own judgement. sumtimes i dun realise it, sumtimes i dun eve notice it, and sumtimes its jus too late for me before i realise wats gg on...ok it seems a lil crappy, i told u im not good at expressing myself, but seriously i like to talk, tats y i dun mind sitting down and jus talk n talk n talk n talk...=) depending on the person and topic! ahahaha yea yea im not tat nice but this world is not tat nice! so its ok! ahahah i guess...
ok i ma go slp now ord, my eyes are really heavy, and i need a good rest, i really really hope i can kick off my mugging season next week! pls...
me myself & i!_____12:45 AM
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Friday, January 12, 2007
i cant tink of wat to write for today.
so yea.
im having a thumping headache anw.
shitty
me myself & i!_____12:05 AM
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Wednesday, January 10, 2007
well well well.... ok im actually suppose to update abt sum shows on the tv... ytd... but then blogger screwed up! so yea, i ma post it now...today! ahahahha
yea so watched the arena ytd... sum new stuffs on ch5, trying to make sum debate competition look like those reality shows like singapore idol... ahahahha i tink the image change is good but a lil too drastic! ahaha but the fight was there between loyang sec and RI! ahahah like wth... a neighbourhood sch filled wit mats pitching against sum rich smart ass bastard! ahahaha but loyang proved all those stereotypes wrong by winning it and they gg thru to the quarter finals! anw the motion for it was sumthing like 'good looks triumph effort!' hahahaha and the final female debator from loyang sec... i must say shes really good at this... seriously articulate... she mite jus be our first female prime minister! ahahhaha
and then watched laguna beach! ahahah sum reality show on mtv tat ive been watching since it started!! ahahah typical teen shows, but kristin from the previous 2 seasons is cute cute cute!!!!! ahahahha anw they were having their proms in this episode, and yah they had proms for the previous 2 seasons too! aahahha but it seems this season prom is a lil boring! but filled wit lotsa drama!!! hahaha anw tat aside, wat im trying to say is that i jus wish that i can experience another prom once more time before i enter ns and i become a man... well...now i kinda regret not joining jc... sux! at least u get to dress up real nice, ask a girl to be ur prom date and see her dressed up in a pretty dress! yea i tink gals dressed up in dress are reall cute and cool! ahahahah and in laguna beach, the guys will like come out wit cool ideas to ask the gals out! like super cool! wahawhawhwah i tink i'll tink of sumthing real cool too! creativity baby! ahahah okok i tink i'll try to think wat i'll do then i'll post it in the next post! ahaahah and then they've got the after party! and they get to rent a hummer limo! damn pimped out! woots
prom prom prom! i want a blardy prom!!!! polytechnics! they dun hav proms! ahahahha and tat sux! i wanna dress up real well for a last prom! cus i didnt really dressed up well for my sec sch prom! dengs! ahahah so yea i really wanna have one last prom experience! students' union! pls see this! u all are suppose to serve the student population! so get a blardy prom in rather than waste money on stupid stuffs! ahahah ok i tink i can get sued for defamation! wahawhawhhwa oh yea! 1 more thing, dun do it amg schools only! cus sch of electrical & electronics have like guys making up 99% of its student population! ahahah make it a mixed one! weeee PROM PROM PROM for me!!!! i want! then i will dress up! then i will dance! it wud be even cooler if its by the beach under the stars! muahahah man tat wud be cool! ok stop here!
ahahahha ok now!we start on today! which is 10/01/07! today is seriously a really weird day... i dunno... i mean its really weird! from my dreams all the way till now... and i feel funny, if my tots are really true... anw mr 'mind'... i tot i told u to go on a long holiday? ahahha
anw... hav u ever noticed that sumtimes, u become someone u dun really like when u try so hard not to be one? get wat i mean? dengs i mean i myself experience it, i tried so hard not to be like erm... ok i cant tink of an example now! ahahah but yea ive got my flaws! ahahahha
***pple have their own wants... and wat do u want seriously? now and every other time. i wanna noe, pending on if u wanna tell. and if u wanna talk... lets talk? or do u like it tis way? =) u need me to tell you everything that i want? cus i didnt say wat i wanted clear enuf at the first time? i'll say it again... but do u wanna listen? lets finish everything tat needs to be finished. and if wat u wrote is really abt me, then i ma tell u that this is abt you, so i believe tats clear enuf? and pls disregard this if i was wrong, and its not abt me, and i sincerely apologise. cus i jus jump to conclusions too easily and yes tats not good. i dun even noe if u'll read this...ahahah. anw if its really abt me, lets talk, my treat for the first drink! and settle it so we live on peacefully. in case u still dun get it, im refering to u my close friend =). tats really clear enuf i guess! but jus disregard this if im wrong, or if u need to. =D ***
sumtimes pple get so busy, busy with work, with their own interests, with their own life. that they forget about other stuffs, the simple things in life, the minor details that happen that cud just make a major difference... and sumtimes pple get so busy spotting someone else's mistake, that they forget to notice wat that someone else has done for them. no matter if its big, it will seem small to them becus of a mistake. tats how humans react i guess? psychology seems cool! ahahaha
anw, like i was saying in previous posts, im reading 'flags of our fathers' rite now. basically its abt the lives of the 6 man that helped to raise the american flag on mt suribachi at iwo jima in WWII. seriously every1 shud read it, cus it tells u abt wat really happened, and how media destroyed the glorious truth... besides that, it tells u abt brotherhood amg the marines, imagine this, all of them were willing to die for their other comrades. and what, most of them merely trained tgt for merely 1 year? yea, tell me, how many of ur frens ard u now wud die for u? ok, lets not say die, lets jus say sacrifice their time and such for u? ok as for me, i believe there is, ok i really HOPE there is! ahahahha cus ive not been a good friend lah!!! ahahhaha =p so yea... jus go read it! and who has the dvd for this movie! lend it to me pls!!!!!! =D and im trying to slow down the rate of my reading, so i wun have to finish reading it too early, but then its ncie tat i cant jus stop reading! hahaha irony! and yah who got the dvd! pls pls lend it to me! ive not been to the movies for like... i dunno when! ahahah
anw tats all for today, ive got schwork! i have to study for my exams! so yea, maybe i'll state my points regarding the motion tat was debated in the arena in the next post? ahahah so yea... til then! which i tink is tmr...? ahahah been updating regularly...dengs
me myself & i!_____10:16 PM
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Monday, January 08, 2007
im suppose to be sleeping cus sch starts early tmr... but here i am, cus i cant sleep! ahhaha been rolling ard the bed for like 30 mins, and in the end i gav up, i woke up, i went to the toilet to pee, and here i am now!!! ahhahaha
weeee...and now im bored... no actually tired lahs...dengs wtf... anw the new internet explorer sux, cus it slows down my comp and lags alot!
so the male mofos all gg taiwan during the holidays! like wtf...to catch sum taiwan babes, and i cant follow, cus ive got attachment and im totally broke...sux... so yea i'll be here in sg doing my attachment but at least the 2 dumbies will be in sg! at least i can disturb them!wahawhawhahaha
flaunt it this fri and yeaps, i do hope its gonna be a success, ahahahah noe wat i mean. ive got my doubts but who cares!!! ahahah
oh yah, who got nice storybooks to lend me...cus yea, at the rate im going wit the current book, i tink i mite jus finish it by the end of this week, which is very fast according to my standards, and yah i dun wanna end up w/o any books to read....
yea, my mind my mind my mind, can u jus jump out of my head so tat i dun hav to be tired by you, cus seriously im tired wit all these thoughts in my mind, i dun wanna tink abt it! i wanna live happilY! like when i was young! no problems! care-free! this world really sux, and wit u ard, i jus cant stop thinking of all these stuffs and then i'll be so tired of my own thoughts and i'll be so down like for eg now, i cant slp, cus while lying down, i start to think, and then it never stops and so here we have it.... jus go and hav sum holidays for urself, come back only when i need u! pls will u do tat for me! i swear i'll treat u better if u do this for me! after all, ur mine... so u better get ur ass moving! muahahahah
my god this is crazy.... yeaps i tink im gg crazy... is this bad? ahahahha i hope its nto tat serious! ahahahh i ve got a great future ahead of me! ok maybe not but i wanna live life to the fullest! and i was asking lala and batam, how old wud u wanna grow old till? then i told them i never wanna grow old pass 60++, cus i dun wanna be a burden to my family and walk ard everywhere weak and all, then they said that wud be selfish of me... then i told them, i'll make sure everything will be perfect for them before i leave! and speaking of family, i want to have 3 kids! 2 guys and a gal! so tat the guys can protect my daughter, and i swear to love them alot! jus like my parents!ahahah but well tats long ago, but i do noe i wanna have 3 kids! tats not alot! ahahahah and yah, then i told them i dun wanna be too rich! but at least more money then i need lah... ahahah ok confusing! cus i dun wan my children to be fighting for it when i leave! i'll make sure i raise them well!!! hahahah and now i feel like i wanna be an entrepreneur! set up my own business! ok 'pop' my balloon! hahaha im dreaming too much! ahahahah
it seems a lil stupid writing all these here, but well...ahahah at least i can rant ard!!! hahaha anw i really really hope once i go back to bed, i wun start to think agn! cus it really sux and its tiring and its torturing...i guess i jus gotta keep talking and talking so that i wun stop to start to thinK! ahahahah if only theres a device where u can talk to it! ahahahah ok nvm, that mite jus be possible in the future! ahahah... yea i guess i need to find a friend that wun get tired of me ranting to them everytime! ahahahah my cats? well they've got too short of attention span!ahhahah talk talk talk! i wanna talk my life away! wahawhawhaw! weeeeee
anw another phrase i came up with, well to help me boost my confidence a lil! ahahha
'Sure you can find someone better than me, but you'll never find another me.'
-Shafiq =)
well, so yea its also to remind me, that every1 is unique, and i'll lose out myself if i lose my friends! even if i manage to find new ones! i'll never forget my past! =)
me myself & i!_____12:35 AM
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Sunday, January 07, 2007
so yea... didnt start off the year quite tat well wit tat first post! haha...well shiet happens so yea.
and last month, december was seriously my worst december ever i tink.. but no matter, december is always and will always be my favourite month and period, cause its the festive and holiday period and also my bday! and yah... that explains also why my favourite no is 12(december is the 12th month of the year anw in case sum of ya'll dunno).
anw yah... it was the worst one ever cause yeaps lotsa stuffs happened, but it wasnt all bad, cus i dunno.... rite now it seems that i shud make the best out of everything, believe that sum1 out there is gg thru the same shiet as me, or even worse... so yea, but that never meant that i cant be put down! cus yea, believe it or not im human afterall and i do have emotions! so vuallaa... i dun tink i'll go into much detail cus yea, any1 can read this from all ard the world and yah, i dun tink its sumthing im comfortable wit. so yea, my mind was in a real whirlwind and everythin was moving so fast and i jus kept it to myself even though i feel like jus pouring it out to sum1 but still yea i guess no point telling any1 anw, maybe one day i will! ahahahah i dunno lah... and its not only 1 problem, it jus keeps piling up and i feel like im in depression! wahawhawh dengs...
anw yah, i believe talking things out is the best solution for anything, but it depends on the person if they can sit there and last it or jus stop halfway and say 'tats it, im done, im tired, if tats how it is, then let it be', cus i tink thats sad... and yah a comprimise wudnt be reached and so, the prob persists and it will inflate and by then it wud be too late to save it... so vualla, again its the decision u make. no guns to ur head and if tats ur final one, i guess no problems can be solved if all u tink is having the easiest way out, and not sacrificing or gg thru troubles for it... cus if tired is ur reason, tats the bullshietest excuse on earth, cus man, get it in ur head that that just shows u dun care, u dun treasure it and seriously go jump down! hahaha ok stop here! ahahah cause no matter if the problem is that stupid or sum other stuffs, still jus talk abt it and ensure that its not tat big a problem cus it mite jus add on to other problems and taaaddaaaa...
oh yeah... and i watched 'Shall we dance?' on hbo or is it star movies... yah then theres this part, after his wife found out that he dances and was wrong abt him having an affair, so he stopped dancing altogether to make sure there'll be no more misunderstanding, even aft his wife suggested that he teached her how to dance so they can dance tgt,... then he said sumthing like this to her,
'having u as my wife is one of the proudest thing that happened in my life, and sumtimes i'll put aside my happiness, and keep it away to make sure that you'll be happy and i wun hurt u'
so yea, i guess that if sum1, ur friend or ur beloved one especially, never commented anithing, it doesnt mean that they are totally fine, but then they're jus keeping things to themselves and trying to make sure that they wun hurt u if they were to pour out their unhappiness... and u shud at least ask them instead of expecting them to tell u everything cus tat way, they noe at least that u wanna noe and they wun feel uneasy to tell u... so yea, personally i feel easier to open up to sum1 who ask abt me rather then jus go up to others and tell them abt wat i feel... i guess so do many other pple...hahaha
anw i was saying tat any1 can read this, imagine 1 hot ang moh gal reading this and then fell in love wit me.... like woah... ahahah ok im dreaming...wtf ahhaahha
anw the mofos has been a great support cus yea, altho i dun tell them stuffs, they do noe shiets gg on and yah they did ask me but they never crossed the boundary when i needed space, and they were there when i needed them, especially my beloved wife, lala! see! im appreciating u! u shud be grateful man!! and my grandson, cute lil ong!awawhawhawh so yea thank you. anw its really amazing how we all got tgt...seriously... tat nite, me batam and musmus tried to recall how it all started at esplanade. and we can never really like confirm how it really started, with the fact that we never really met a few months aft o levels... and we are not so super close, all of us, when we were in the same class... ok maybe we were quite close lah, the back pple, me, ong, musmus, faiz always disturbing lala, and tat stupid batam act dao! blardy hell! and yah bhoon always crash our class to join in and fir like get to noe us only when he was in the same class wit faiz in mj. i guess amazing things do start out simple... =)
and yah, seriously... they've always been there for me, when i was always coming late, thx to union..stupid union...hahahah, they will wait for me! ahahah and i swear its really really late and its a handful no of times.... ahhaha... i guess thats sumthing im proud to hav! i dunno i guess tat this is one of the greatest thing that happened for me in 2006, we got closer tgt! and yah, batam and lala was saying tat they went shopping once then this lady asked them, 'u all sisters?' then they said 'nopes, friends...since sec sch...' then the lady continued, 'oooo... u noe that ur sec sch friends are the ones that u will keep thruout ur life...' so yea, i hope we'll still hang out even aft we get married....
oh yah then that day we were talking abt migrating, then we say why not we all migrate tgt...then aft that we buy one piece of land and start a villa, then i suggested 'tats good, then after that we can marry our children wit each other!!!' wahawhawh and tat stupid lala jus gotta eeeeee damn long! wahawhawhwah jacko! i guess i'll talk more abt all this in another posts?? ahahah
but yeah...its nice to reminisce old stuffs... and i do hope tat sum things never change... and yea, i have a few in particular in mind..=S hahaha but yah, no matter things move on, and altho its the new year, im still having problems catchin up wit everything, everthings like so fast-paced...and yah, im caught up in all of its web... imagine this, i love to sleep alot, and guess wat, everyday i'll sleep ard 2am the earliest... and wake up at 8.30am.. so yea i guess im having sleeping disorder rite now, and yah everytime i wake up, my mind jus start to wander and its really torturing everyday...sux! sumtimes i jus wish that i cud sleep 23hrs a day and jus spend 1 hr awake...tat way my wild mind wun hav those stupid tots, like now...ahahah! but well well well, at least now i find a new hobby, and believe it or not, its reading! and its super weird cus ive never liked reading all my 18 years of life, but when i started now, i jus dun wanna stop cus seriously it brings me to a place where i dun hav to think of such stuffs...and rite now im on 'Flags of our Fathers' that i bought for almost 17 bucks!! my first ever storybook that i ever bought!hahah but its damn nice and ive not watched the movie lah...so yea... i'll talk abt it in another post! been damn long ord! ahahah but i'll end wit one sentence from the book....
Mothers should negotiate between nations.
The mothers of the fighting coutries would agree:
Stop this killing now. Stop it now.
- YOSHIKUNI TAKI
me myself & i!_____1:01 AM
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Wednesday, January 03, 2007
FUCK U BITCHES BIG TIME MAN! shiet! if only words cud kill, u'll be dead by now man!!! fking bitches! aye man, if theres really a fking problem, get ur balls even tho ur a freaking bitch and talk it out man! wat runaway bitch? how far can u runaway man! even if u runaway from here, u'll fucking rot in hell, and i'll hurl all the fking curse at u bitch! yea rite, this is fucking useless cus its no use scolding all the fked up words rite here, but at least i can let go my anger! fkers man! go get ur fucking ass drunk and get raped and get pregnant get a fking daughter and let her get raped by ur fking drunkass bf and see how it feels like man! fkers man wats wrong wit u bitches! cant u all jus fking talk instead of not replying! fkers! if u all bitches wanan fking ignore me, fk settle the fking problem and that get me off ur back for all i care cus u noe wat...i dun fking wit ur fking life, but i ma get wat belongs to me bitch! u wanna play games lets play! i play games the way u fkers wanna play and if i fking get into trouble at least my fking anger is off! killing myself over this kinda stupid fkin stuffs is dumb man! big time! shiet u all bitches die and rot in hell flesh all hanging off from ur nostrils! bitches! fuck man! and to all those other fkers bastard and bitches, if theres any prob, i suggest tat its better if u all bring down ur asses to sum bitchass table and talk things out over a drink man...to me or ur other friends seriously the time wasted there is worth it bitchass
me myself & i!_____11:27 PM
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