see...im fickle minded... i jus said tat i wudnt blog agn...but here i am blogging! ahahha... anw hatred fills me up now...so excuse me for all these stuffs i ma type...muahahha.. i guess wat yoda said was true... all started off from fear..!!! hahah who said star wars sux! so wat if it sux! i like it so u can suck ur popsicles out loud!hahaha
im seriously getting tired of being pushed ard, being taken for granted, being second to everything and yes im willing to take chances now even if theres risks involve! it really really puts me down everytime i tink abt stuffs, and especially with a mind ive got that never stops thinking abt ridiculous stuffs too... its jus so tiring! i dun giv a shiet rite now if pple tink im not understanding or have an attitude cus im jus not tat nice and perfect enuf to live life this way! muahahah i expect more, and i believe i can work for it, cus seriously i want the best for myself!
friends? rite now i tink they dun last, or u can never be sure they are there for u everytime! hahah well excluding sum of cus, and they deserve commendation from me! and they duly deserve it! see... i believe in karma and what goes does come ard... i treat pple nicely and i seriously do hope that pple treat me nicely too, and if i treat them badly, i dun give 2 cents abt how they treat me... and wat pple think of me... well? tell them to f off cus they can say, then maybe i'll get affected for awhile and then i'll let them kiss ma arse clean!
i'm almost 18, and ive grown up, altho not tat much, but ive gone thru lots of shiets too, so those pple out there that thinks they noe so much, tell them i noe tat much abt 18 years of life too!! its jus stupid to always hear pple pointing to me tat im wrong, tat theres a better way, man i appreciate tat advice, but noe where to stop, cus im easily irritated by fkers tat i dun tink i wanna listen to!
im jus filled up wit so much hatred tat i find being alone sumtimes serves a purpose! wit music tat is! but well sumtimes it jus gets me to start thinking abt stupid stuffs and then i'll feel low agn! ironic! how contradicting i am!
So wateva... 18 soon and seriously i dun look forward to turning 18! cus i jus feel tat theres more shiets to come as i grow older! i wanna be young agn! a small kid! see... irony again! i wanna play wit toys! i wanna hold my mum's hands and walk ard everywhere! i wanna cry when i see my 2 big brothers leaving me alone at home as they go out! i wanna wrestle wit my dad when my mum cooks chilli prawns! i wanna tink abt gg home to play soccer at the void deck wit my neighbors! i wanna spend time wit my cuzzins and hav fun! i dun wanna feel down becuz of everything tat happens ard me, friends, relationship, money, future, politics! i wanna dream abt wat i wanna be when i grow up! i wanna suck my pacifier and run ard in my pampers! i wanna dance to lame music on those advertisements! i jus wanna live life, not knowing abt the bad side of it, so innocent and naive of everything! knowing tat i will never fall, knowing tat sum1 will be there to catch me, sum1 tat will cheer me up if i cry, knowing everything wud be perfect cus i noe it wud!
18 years old? eligible to club? eligible to drink? eligible to do mroe stuffs?eligible to have sex? ey wait tats 16.. but wtf, club ur life away... drink ur life away... if that makes u happy i'll respect wateva pple do, jus giv my life a break when i need to!
freedom is wat u want? freedom is wat u'll get? but can u handle the freedom u were given? i cant, and so do many other 'matured adults' cus life shud be 'enjoyed'? ahahah laugh my arse off and excuse me for my comment cus well ur life rite?!?!/ i shudnt giv a hood abt it, cus my lifes not perfect at all!
tats my rant...more to say, but well i dunno how to say rite now... haters out there?dun worry i m a hater too, so i cant complain abt u fkers... but being me, i'll keep complaining, tinking im oh so perfect...hahah dun get wat i mean? then if u bother or even care abt bothering, hav sum initiative and ask me and dun wait for me to tell u everything cus its jus oh so stupid cus i wun noe if u wanna even noe! =) life? 18 years of it and more to come unfortunately! weets