Stay home saturday! dengs, felt really weird though staying home for the whole day... blearghs... i need it anw... spent almost my whole day sleeping and slacking in my house and also playing Company of Heroes!! ahahah wth, plus not being able to munch away on tidbits...dengs!! horror! ahaks, gd thing my nephew is not around though! wahawhawhwah
and im alone with nothing to do, my mind will start to wander and wonder abt stuffs and this might not always not good! wahaks
was damn tired from the training and i tink i just sux at soccer and maybe i shud jus be a waterboy! wahaks! and thankfully my sec sch jackos were nice enuf to jus slack off playing cards that night! but it was still fun though hanging out wit em! im jus really grateful they are ard to hang out with! ahaks! i shud find more friends like them whom i can hang ard wit! wahwahawhawh i tink im weird cuz many pple cant click wit me, and tats not good! wahawhwahawh but unfortunately these jackos can, i dunno how they are able to do so! wahawhhawahw now it wud be ard 8 more weeks b4 the 2 dumbies are free from their a level stress before we all can meet up again and make fun of each other! dengs
and then it got me thinking, 3 of us will be gg into ns in abt 2 yrs! then 2 more will be gg in abt 3 yrs time... my god, then it wud be so hard to stay contact! wahawhawh hope we will still be able though! wahawhawhawh sux sux sux! i hate this kinda situation! wawahawhawh dumb life!
anw this got me thinking abt life life life! wth! these thoughts keep coming back and then disappear and then it will reappear again! wahawhawh wth! anw the future looks so scary i tink! stupid! garhs!!! future future future! noe wat? i always dreamt of being a pilot! till now but it wud be hard cuz ive got a history of asthma! so dumb! wth! anw anw anw i tink i need to go jump down clear my mind cuz i dun like to think so much! im a pathetic low life jacko that dun like to use my brain, simply put im a lazyass! blearghs! actually many things been running on my mind that i dunno how to start and write it here! ahaks, i do it better when speaking lah i guess, where my mouth keeps reloading itself everytime! wahaks wth!
and this is not emo, its jus me trying to figure out stuffs! wahawhwahwah
"Sometimes when they are gone, they are really gone..." this is really sad though! ahaks... im the kinda person that dun like to lose stuffs but unfortunately i always lose them...ahahah great! come to my house and u'll see all the stupid stuffs that i keep that u tink shud hav disposed! ahaks... and it dates back till i cant rmb when...wahawhha and to add on to the sadness it does not apply only to material stuffs! wahaks... sad lah! but tats the fact of life and i dunno if it can be avoided or not.... blearghs, i tink its harder to lose material stuffs, cuz it only invovles u whereas if its the 'human' stuffs, it involves 2 different beings and sumtimes u jus cant read the other mind and tada! u lose it! actually im really afraid of losing stuffs! sux! wahaks...wth its evil! this world that is!
i'll write more when i feel like it lah. anw say goodbye by chris brown is hot! actually theres lot of other songs im repeating now! wth!
anw ps:i tink im ranting nonsense lah, ignore this unless ur bored and wanna noe the nonsensical me! =)
do wishes come true...? =)